One Prayer!

One Prayer! I'm completely burned off now, My Spirit Shines! It's become thy Bangaru- (Pure Gold!) Now! All that's left is this ash. O! Shiva, if this ash is pure enough for thee! Then adorn me on thy forehead. For whatever is left of me, Is only to be used in serving thee! For me the holy water of Ganges; Are verily "Thy Lotus Feet!" I've come to thy door, Burnt off, Pure as ash! Yet! I rise with only 'One Prayer'; "Take me & And with thy touch; Redeem all that's left!" . . It's been 16-17 years now. It's said that medical science has advanced enough, yet I have experienced otherwise, I've lived in Chronic Back Pain, that after a decade of trying numerous therapies & tests, was to no avail & just 2-3 years back got diagnosed as autoimmune disorder.

It has weakened my muscles, tissues & nervous system, so much that I can only do things in 15-20minutes bracket & at times even lesser than that. Yet, like thousands of autoimmune diseases, even mine is difficult to diagnose. Many people like me have such unnamed illnesses, that they too have braved for decades, where it's not the doctors or medicine, but their spirit that helps them soar through it all. And to add to it, this recent dengue fever took a toll on me. I don't even remember a single day in my life, since 2001, when I've been entirely pain free or sickness free. It takes immense courage to let yourself out in the open, after living silently for years in chronic pain, where your body keeps shutting down. Photo Diaries Copyright: Meghna/2017