To Only Please Thee!

All my dreams & wishes Have burnt down to ashes As grey charcoal-dust of soot! Which I carried long...that once ignited my spirit...Yet! Burnt beneath my skin & pores; Weeping cries of silent-pain, that no more echoes! I've let it all out...at thy lotus feet I've offered the pains of all my untold stories... O! Beloved; what was meant to be Was meant to be! Now this blank page of my life, in "Surrender!", I offer it to thee; Let my life unfold; Let the stream of my heart-gurgle Only As Thy Will! My life-story let it be written by thy very own hand! For Beloved, is it okay...inspite of all...one wish I've still steadfastly held! Beneath my eyelids... As I fret even to weep... Lest! It may be washed away, by my tears of longings; that my heart still sings! The only wish, that alone makes me breathe; That Wish! My Beloved Of Beloved's! "Is To Only Please Thee!!!" . My life took a 360* turn since 3rd November 2001, where I was bedridden for 2 months and later on those episodes of being bedridden persisted and all I would do is lay in bed, and drift away with my mind. I believe the only thing that helped me during those most testing times was A Beautiful Mind! That was my saviour & gift from my beloved Lord. A mind filled with ideas to paint, to work on innumerable projects as an artist, where journals over journals are scribed with such ideas. A mind that never gave in, fuelled by my Spirit. Those episodes significantly reduced after Coco's coming into my life. But today this poem of surrender sprung from my heart, where all my wishes & dreams to work on various art installations & projects, I've offered to him. Let thy will be! . Copyright: Meghna/2018