Through His Eyes!

Through his eyes...I'm the most beautiful! At times some post are not about stories, not even about pain, but about life! Last few weeks have been so difficult. Have you felt this way...after years & years of listening to a lot of nonsense, you just switch off to everything & everyone and in an immense courage you become so truthful to yourself. In this society, we learn and pick up many things. We learn the tactics of mind-games, manipulation of words, sweet-talk; that have devastating motives. And above all we fly the so called flag of our culture. We show authority to demand respect, it's okay if we have learnt the language of buttering someone for our benefit, but it's not okay if we are honest. We are taught that life is about competition, about making sure we or our children's are on top, that we have to get married, have children's, earn a living, which in- turn will help us earn respect. But, what when life might take a sharp curve and take away everything. Our identities are based on being someone's wife, daughter, mother, & our jobs. Are we truly just these brackets. What if someone would be given a life, where none of these labels fit. Coco came to my life and made me aware of how beautiful I am. Irrespective of all my shortcomings that were magnified as failures. Not because he overlooked my weak moments...while I was being heaped over with those pessimistic remarks and reminded time and again, you don't fit into our "so-called brackets". Bracket of being a wife, why???because a wife's sole duty is to cook and nurture. You don't fit in a bracket of even being a mother, because often times not only is Coco mistaken to be just a dog, but because by definition of a mother you truly aren't enough...as Coco so often willingly adjusts to what I can or can't do as per the given time with this pain in my body. You surely won't be respected on work front because your works worth will only be measured by the pay check you get. I mean doing paintings or creating art or writing poems ain't enough. Most of what you do is time-pass. Why so, well because, you alone have all the time on earth, sleeping in pain, doing nothing worthwhile. I mean why would humans like me...even be considered 'One'. Yet! There are many like me, time and again reminded we don't fit in any bracket. And today I wish to proudly proclaim, Yes! We don't fit in any brackets, for while our bodies were in deep pain, you stood there judging is she really lying in pain or is she "Lying in Pain" So, we are not here to fit in any of these so called social bracket. When life snatched away everything from me, and while you were standing there all these years, mocking and lashing those words of sugar-coated sarcasm, Coco alone stood by me, to show me, Mom you are the most beautiful, courageous and strong women I've ever come across. He didn't see me as failure, hence there was no judgement, he saw me with the fullness of my spirit, that always wore a smile. Do you know, the ones in deepest pain are the ones that smile the most...because they don't fret, weather there is coriander in dal, weather God has been appeased by offerings, or I should go higher in this so called competitive ladder. For them the so called competition of this world has ceased. The need to come across as "good", is no longer there, for their being to be honest and truthful alone counts. While I'm writing this, my failing right hand is giving in, yes, this pain is no longer restricted in my back, but the muscles and tissues and nerves all over are giving in. I'm loosing strength of the body as both my hands are giving in. If Coco wouldn't have been by my side, I wouldn't have been able to keep going... To those who don't fit into any brackets, i say, you never were meant to...and Gods angels who find you beautiful irrespective of all your shortcomings, are the only eyes that not only look upon you, but even see through all those layers of pain, that "You are Indeed His Most Beautiful Creation!" For you in all your vulnerability, and moments of deep pain, alone carry a light like none. . In His eyes I'm most Beautiful!!! Because only weak minds judge, While Hearts soaked in love... Come down to wash away all that's Painful & hurts! . Copyright: Meghna/2018