Only Porcelain Dolls Are Fixed, While Love Alone Heals!

Today a beautiful butterfly fluttered-passed me...such luminous wings, dipped in the deepest blue...yet one of its wing were broken and damaged. The light of Sun brought out its innate beauty. For the Sun knows nothing but to light up every corner of this earth. Coco to me does the same, he accepts me with all my vulnerability and broken wings. Love is that beauty which silently watches over you, when you are broken. Love does not know to fix. For we aren't objects that can be glued back to life. We are life along with all our ruffled edges.

There's a beautiful quote from Maya Angelou- There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you. And how true these words rings to me. It takes great courage to let your story out. And what Coco and my Beloved Lord have done is acceptance even of my most vulnerable self. For to let out the storm of ones dark nights through art makes ones pain beautiful.

If not we wouldn't have paintings of Freida Kahlo nor the beauty of A Vangogh to help us understand that life even if broken is what it is. The porcelain FB posts of sharing pictures of ones life with all perfectness never appealed to me. For I was not cut out to fit into the brackets of social norms. When Atul & I got married our life took a sharp turn with my physical downfall. Marriage to us was never about making a living & children's. My illness though has broken this body but has made me a far stronger & truthful person than I've ever been. Through my art I share my story of pain, of love that walk besides me. And through my darkest times, where most will question my faith, i tell them the words of my Beloved Lord- "This pain too is my gift, in patience let it be, for I watch upon you and light up even your broken wings."

Most times when I walk along Coco through these dark nights, I have this feeling, I just want to walk & walk till the end of the earth, with this love besides me, walk till all this Pain that weighs on my heart, shall become a song that I've come to sing. So I'll keep walking till one day you'll listen to my music.

Till then know, you cannot fix me, for my Beloved Lord says this too is good for me for he's put me into this chrysalis, So that what emerges now, is the most Truthful & Purest part of him!

Copyright Meghna/2018