His Sufi Song!

When you've lived with a dream for so long..... That it becomes your skin.... So much a part of thy soul.... Layering all those unspoken words within.... And then in a moment's flash! Everything that you lived & breathed for.... Is taken away...leaving you bare-naked....to thy soul..... That Bleeds.....Silently...... And yet! Wishes to dance.... Offering even the Last of remaining's! Till all the life.....slips from the soles of thy feet.... You dance....That Last Dance!....But! Only for him.... And when even that, is breathed from thy very bones.... That little song.....that still remains.... That last drop.....too.... Thou wish to offer it to him! Till you become A Sufi Song born from the tear of his eye.... Slipping into His Light! For other than living for him....&.... pleasing him.... You just Know Nothing! .

its true my Beloved Lord other than living for you, I know nothing....so much has been going on the personal front, where I was working on a project for my beloved, but what happens....when your offering is not accepted....can you even call yourself an artist, since twelve years of age I've been dreaming that through art.... I can serve and share his love....but can I even call myself an artist if the work offered may not be shared in the same manner. This illness has pull down this body such that....nothing remains the same... the only hope that kept me going on was that....maybe... someday ill be able to serve through art....but that too seems bleak. The other day, I wished to go and see an exhibition in my college, but I barely started on my journey, & my body shut-down and was on the verge of collapse....leaving me no choice but to return home.

Later I had the last dance for him, as once again my body shut down..... my mom is a trained Bharatnatyam dancer & both my elder sister & I use to train for kathak and I would even train for singing. I guess art just ran in my family, but lately I realised... I can't even move my body.....so this too me is my last dance... and till this song remains....as life in my veins.... for you my beloved ill sing

Copyright: Meghna/2018