Coco! Ive Gotta Paint Now!!!

Coco! Get my wings! For I wish to fly & sing my song; That I've carried for long within He Bargained all my tears with Stars & wove me wings with such Love; So that I too shall have the strength; To follow My Dreams! . God is always sitting next to you When you work... For you're fulfilling The Dream of the Earth! And making it Beautiful & Pure! . Each soul comes with a calling. And yesterday night that's what happened. I told Coco, "I have to paint Now!" He kept panting seeing me go out of the bedroom, to fetch all of my pastels & charcoals & paints. And then after a while he slept besides me. Over the years I've realised how much I've put everyone else before this calling. And my health downfall is an all together different struggle. Since last few days once again I'm unable to walk much & my evenings & nights pass with struggle to even breathe, leaving me unable to speak. Lately since my dads passing, there's a big shift in me. I no longer wish to waste whatever energy I have, in things that one shouldn't get consumed in. I've been gifted to be an artist. I remember my college days we'd be eating, thinking, breathing art. And yesterday I felt that intensity to paint. How instinctively the words & visuals pour. The second poem though was written during my college days, but it resounds true to me every time I read.

For every second I wish to paint, for Coco & this guidance that God gives.

I know! I'm going very down with my health through this autoimmune disease. Because simply sitting to paint has irritated my nerves such that they become so tight & such times I'm unable to lift my arm or even move without excruciating pain. But I know! That this strength of Love that Coco gives are my wings. And I need to paint & fulfill this dream that has been given unto me . For Coco, my motivation to walk & my voice to express as an artist Box Canvas 6"x6"- pastels, acrylic, charcoal & impasto . Copyright: Meghna/2019