Who Mothers Whom...

Pain has a way of dwindling relations, of brackets & notions born from ones physical attachments, like a distant memory of some past life, that seems too blur & looses its meaning along the way. In what bracket should I put you my beloved, who often states that His Love is that of a thousand mother, or Cocos love, weather I can even call myself his mom as he’s been mothering me beyond words. Nurturing, sowing seeds of hope, loving selflessly, even giving yourself up for others to grow, what makes a mother, the one who gives birth, for one is ever indebted to the life she breathes from her own, but like me, who’ve not physically experienced a life growing within, yet in longing has asked God for a motherhood gift, which he fulfilled, when he gave me Coco. Yet! I wonder who mothers whom, for he’s come to me at a time, when he’s seen my body fail irrevocably. He’s nurtured my pain with his acceptance & wiped my tears with his silence. He’s seen me go down like none, yet he’s breathed in me healing of God. Twice when I strongly felt I can’t go on through this gruelling pains, he’s seen me through, bare naked to the vulnerability of my soul. He doesn’t even know that girl who had lived a normal life prior to 19years, that girl whom he’s given the gift to be a mother, for I wouldn’t have made it this far. He came at a time of my life, when I was numb, & when things were at its worse. Pain has dwindled the fabric of my so called worldly relations. Maybe that’s why I can no longer bracket them. I don’t see myself as someone’s wife, child or even a mother. But when I see myself through Cocos eyes, I often wonder, who mothers whom, maybe he’s just come down to show me the strength in Love that does not abandon nor seek acknowledgment. A Love as pure as God. That comes to carry those, especially like me, who truly don’t fit in any brackets of this world.

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I wanted to share this video from yesterday as Coco knows how pain stops me from even being able to walk as he senses the changes & in his own inimitable way he holds my feet with his paws & uses his nail to relive the pressure point by licking away my pain, even at times beyond an hour until he’s satisfied. Today when one of the therapy animal group had asked to share a photo of dogs mom with their puppies, it left me wondering, in my case who mothers whom. This video is my sharing of love to all, who mother their loved ones through the most testing of times

©️Meghna/2020

PS: There were multiple videos of him nurturing me through pain though wish to share one