Heart Of God (continue part 10)
- May 30
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Updated: 24 hours ago
28th May 2026
Such a beautiful prayer, I too truly feel that this work here is done. It came from His Heart unto mine, Until I realised that it was Never my heart but His; His Presence as this Heart within me. That got me this far in life especially when there were No Answers.
With all the Challenges of this pain & people by and large not understanding, Even that was fodder for my growth.
I know Badal has been rescued & is being given treatment & if Swami wills he will live & he will experience Love from humans in whose heart God-dwells.
As dogs being resilient, do bounce back.
Yet I pray no innocent life has to ever endure such apathy due to human failings.
Swami has saved him too, Because in the end it’s not the name of those who’ve hurt that are remembered, But those who’s Spirit endured the worse & yet didn’t loose their Souls, are the ones dear to God.
So hopefully Now this Heart of God,
when he shall ask me to share- Shall open the Hearts in others who shall know- that God Always dwells within them as this Heart- Simple & Sweet.
Lest the only Choice they need to make is heed to its call within, and not to the mind & its desires, because God speaks to each heart based on their individual journey’s.
11.35am
Above link to post
O Such a beautiful message from him to send here & Especially after the above thought of heart.
I believe the bees shall come & partake the honey from this flower of offering that Swami has given to us.
Yes It’s His Offering to us.
He’s the doer- writer, inspiration, artist behind this- I’m Nothing.
The bees shall benefit as they are wise enough to partake the honey from this work.
Whilst the flies shall meander from birth after birth upon the garbage of their own limited thinking & minds of others. & in doing so bargain their true Self!
1.08pm
Later I asked Swami to send his love as mine wasn’t enough towards a soul, for the way he stood by….
& Later upon asking did he…
Swami says - He’s in my Embrace, I’ve accepted thy prayer, See that is why you’re A Beacon of My Light here, Because even when something challenging or heart-breaking happens in your life, you’re quick to remember- You’re free,
& your Mind easily dissolves all pain in your Heart & your Heart is My Love-Forgiving!
2.33pm
This is the Crux of this entire work- God can’t be Present where there is A Victim- Either there are two Victim’s meeting life’s challenges, with a mind that is unable to show love, fighting, arguing endlessly,
Or there’s Gods Heart Righteously Still, Peaceful, Standing up, But Loving & sending Love!
Either you meet life from the standpoint of A Victim based on all your gathered stories & keep reacting & living life as though on a loop, by suffering for lifetimes over lifetimes.
Or you transcend into A Heart of God that is beyond minds limited thoughts.
The Choice is always yours!!!
You either identify as a victim to your mind-body experiences, Or Know you’re God!!!
3.34pm.
Later A Vision,
I see Swami in yellow gown, he standing facing me, while I’m seated down.
Excitedly he repeats “Take Padnamskar, Take Padnamaskar, Take Padnamskar, My child”,
Then lovingly he pats both my cheeks with his hands & says- “I’m Very, Very, Very Happy,
My Child”,
Then he places both his hands upon the i-pad, (where this work is saved), as he says-
“I Bless it, I Bless it, I Bless it!!!”
And while saying it- thrice, he touches the i-pad that I’m holding, by placing both his palms upon it
Vision ends
PS: Finished both the paintings by 29th
4.38pm
(I take a screen shot of my cell, for noting down the time of Vision, to be included later, as my eyes were shut. At times he gives the Vision whilst my eyes are open & I’m engaged in some activity.
But when this Vision was given, I had just taken a break from painting & was laying, in order to get back on energy)
29th May 2026
That lil voice from within
“Beloved if is said I’ll come, then I’ll come,
I’ll Not Forsake you Bangaroo!!!”
1.42am.
Since my energy not only dipped but i felt I’ll slip,
i told him it seems I’m dying…
& hence he gave me the above words of assurance
1.44am
Mother it was your Sheer Grace to let me do this work.
Please see to it that it gets shared as per your Will!
But something doesn’t feel right, if i die, then let me die at your lotus feet. Make sure of that.
& Thank you for Everything, but I’m truly not in a good condition. Tho i know- you know it already!!!
2.07am
& immediately he sends this message of Grace, as I wrote to him that this work happened only by thy sheer grace
Swami please make sure that the last Vision of you Blessing this work is painted & we still have to share the 27th & 28th post on our site, as the paintings are ongoing.
Please let me finish the last painting & share this work, post that if i die also I’m fine. Because my life’s purpose is met. But till then no matter how bad this gets- keep me going! Hopefully tomorrow we can finish both the paintings & share the post
2.56am
Swami since this work is near to completion once i finish the painting of yesterday’s Vision….
Then From my end all the steps are taken-
Now from your end you decide, Where does my life & souls like Badals stand with this pain.
Because the pain has played it’s part & our souls kindness too has played it’s part, irrespective of how we were seen or met,
But now you have to play your part in the grand scheme of things!
They say- When you do Gods work then God does your work.
Please Heal Badals jaw…
Please Show up!!!
By giving him a miraculous healing & not being subjected to months of pain by a wire being attached to hold his jaw
He sure doesn’t deserve this…
Otherwise this work that’s called -
“The Heart Of God”- truly has No Heart in it.
As for me, either heal & give A New Beginning,
in all aspects of my life
Or let me leave too, Just like Coco!
2.52pm
That’s a beautiful message, because I would write letters to Shirdi baba since my school days,
So yes he did call….
Later again that lil voice from within
“I Embrace you with A Love that’s Kind!
& along you all the souls you’ve prayed for!”
5.48pm
Above link to post
Swami sent such a beautiful talk, that also especially since yesterday the post is about animals & kindness, But the kindness with which this lord met his devotees who came in an animal form is truly heart touching.
& by the end of the talk I was simply melting in tears at the love & lengths with which Swami goes to show us this respect & acknowledgment to Ones Service & teachings of oneness.
Entire day till late evening i was working & finished painting yesterday’s Vision,
as there were 2 artworks of the Vision
& upon finishing i told him- Now you have to Finish the stories of our life- for Badal healing & love!
As for me if there’s no healing then please let me go!!!
Thank you!
But now you have to intervene maa!!!!
10.53pm
Even this last message of the day, is in context of seeing God in all living beings. As lovingly Swami is holding this rabbit. I know, Swamis love has reached Badal too as an assurance from this above message.
Later That lil voice within
Your Faith will Not Fail, Your Faith will Not Fail!!! Your Baba will be there, Even before you call!!’ 11.47pm
30th May 2026
Everyone meets you from the place they are at. But you should meet yourself from the place-
God is at.
This journey is more about seeing yourself, Checking the mind space that you’re entangled in, & knowing- you’re not what you think.
It’s Not even about checking on-others
Yes Observing is a beautiful space of heart.
Observing yourself & surrounding liberates. Observing makes One Aware of Gods breath within. And Observing Alone creates a distance between this breath- this presence within from ones own limited mind & a body that’s every single second dying.
This Presence remains untouched,
Since there’s No Beginning, No End, No Time.
This Presence alone shall Be,
Even when dissolution of ones mind, body
& even this Cosmos shall happen, Which it shall,
in it’s own time…..
The Presence Alone shall be, For it is beyond time!
And in knowing & Experiencing this alone-
you’ll know how Gods Heart breathes!!!
For This Heart is not like a human heart,
But In Love & As Love Ever Expanding.
Observe more why you think, speak or feel the way you do & something within you shall shift
into a space of Silence & Being & then you’ll realise not only were you never separate from God; But you art that!!!
Because wheresoever, Gods Heart dwells,
there itself Grace, Beauty & Blessings are showered upon this earth.
Samastha Lokah Sukino Bhavantu!
Samastha Lokah Sukino Bhavantu!
Samastha Lokah Sukino Bhavantu!
12.57pm
Mother now either you have to call me to you & Coco Or you have to come!!!
2.38pm
Above link to post
And once again to my above feelings, he comes with such a beautiful message, where the words in the song means- you are aware of my happiness & sadness & I am what I am, because of you.
And with this message Swami went all out,
as while doing yesterdays painting of the vision, where swami asks to take Padnamaskar, I tell Swami now either your Grace shall flow, Or I’ll be left to live this kind of a life. And out here, in the animation there’s actually grace flowing from him to me. Grateful for having a Beloved Lord like him!!! 3.51pm
Swami inspired me to drive to the Ganpati temple that’s on Shivaji Park grounds.
For blessings upon this work from Bappa.
I barely managed to reach 5 minutes to 11,
before the gates are closed & then people can take Darshana, standing outside through the grill door.
So I asked the priest if he could touch the iPad for blessing. He touched it to Bappas feet & then applied haldi kum-kum upon it & placed an hibuscus flower with durva that was offered to Bappa.
I thanked Swami for the Blessing that inspite of me feeling very down in energy, we could make it in time for the Blessings.
As No work is ever complete without Ganpati Bappas Auspicious Blessings!!!
I later walked around the circle as the entire day, I was at home.
It was a very slow & difficult walk, considering the energy dips with Cancer. But nevertheless Swami gave me the energy as well as got me back home safely.
31st May 2026
Above link to post
My Prayer had reached you long back…
Yet…There was always a wait.
It’s the last day of this month. With your blessings we even managed to get Ganpati Bappa’s blessings of haldi kumkum upon this iPad.
But Now either my Faith shall win!
Or my heart shall loose!!!
As beyond this month, it can’t go on like this anymore!
1.53am
Today’s day- “Let Truth Alone Speak!!!”
These feet of yours are placed upon this rug- Believe me i may not have placed a red carpet for you, But my Heart Alone Pure- is enough!!!
2.40am
Beloved you say that it is our Love Alone that pulls you to come….i waited & waited & prayed yesterday till 3.30-4am…..But you didn’t come…..
I started working on this painting based on my innermost feelings I shared below, while tears streaming.
And listening to this beautiful song- of how Mother Parvati too had to do tapas to attain Lord Shiva for years. I guess no one can win the lord without being subjected to Fires of purity.
Am sharing Apple Music as well as Spotify link to listen
The Pain that I would have lived today, I have Alreday lived that yesterday…..
if you know what I mean by this very sentence,
Because even this paper is not enough to contain all of my tears of last 26yrs & especially the Ones that wept profusely in his longing…
& then after a few hours of sleep, when this day arrived lending suns light, as though this earth woke up to it’s New Beginning,
Yet my heart in darkness weighed down….
& the choking in my throat, the silent tears that I wipe every now & then, the heaviness upon my heart & a quietness that can’t be bought.
All I offer to thee.
Maybe your Sai Geeta’s trumpeting was purer than the offering of my heart. But how can I even offer you this heart, When it was given to me, in the very first place by thee-
As thy very presence & how can I offer you any Love- When that love too was yours only placed in it. So in truth I have Nothing to offer you-
Because its all given from you to me.
Yet the only thing I have left offering to you- is this Pain, these tears, this choking within my throat & heart & this Silence. There are No Shabaris half-bitten berries here, There’s No Hanumans heart too, There’s No red carpet, There’s no meals as your devotees would cook & offer thee freshly-made, nor is this house of yours spick & span cleaned for thy welcome, there’s not even Sai Geeta’s trumpeting,
there’s not even two buffaloes who’ve served you,
Because I know this work is also you, not me,
it’s you serving us. There’s Nothing here…Nothing….Nothing…. So I totally get it, if you don’t wish to come…. Like most….Becasue there’s Nothing here…. Other than this Longing & Tears!!!
Just wish to say-
I’ve lived my tomorrows longing yesterday itself….
Now there’s only this quietness & tears
& I shall keep wiping them until they too dry into An Abyss of Silence!
Because if these salty tears aren’t sweet for thee- than what more can I offer you to partake of;
My Beloved of Beloved’s Sai!!!
For I’ve lived my tomorrow’s pain yesterday Alreday!!!
11.25pm
This is the exact picture he had inspired me to paint for the Vision- Where he says “I’m the Driver of your car”, meaning life. & here he’s asking me, “Will you let me in?”, I mean maa can’t you see my tears & pinning that you still need to ask this….
What more do I need, but you!
Above link to post
You say Truth & Righteousness will always Triumph & that’s exactly what I asked you-
Today’s day- “Let Truth Alone Speak!!!” Then why haven’t you’ve come….Because all I did was abide in the Truth of the Self & Righteousness of my heart, Yet here I stand alone- stranded in life….
It doesn’t matter if the entire world is against you…..It Truly matters not….. But if Swami is not with you….If he doesn’t heed to your innermost silent call- Then Everything is lost!
Because if God is not with you, then having a human birth too has no value, your life here has
no value, No matter what one my achieve in this world, it’s all futile.
2.05pm
PS: I’ve finished the drawing, will paint…but tears & this work has no value if he doesn’t come…..
There’s just deep pain that you didn’t come,
No Panic….
Yes it’s True it’s all just a drama, because in Truth there is no you & me, There is only Him. And him within each helping that soul reach that purity. One only feels as A Victim out of Separetness form this Truth. Hence we are all actors, because whatever happens to ones body & mind, Truly doesn’t take way or add anything from this Essence of Presence within. For the Presence is Paripoorna by itself, unaffected by time, mind, body. Hence Swami says it’s all just a drama, until One reaches in Awareness of this Presence.
i painted the above prayer, emotion, Silence & tears on a piece of paper, worked non-stop through the day & by late evening 8.30pm the offering was finished
Now I have nothing more left to offer him, There’s this Silence within & A Heart that’s One with all, who’ve experienced this deep pain of longing.
O Beloved Freind,
there’s Nothing more left on my part.
Now there’s Only this Heart filled with Silence.
9.18pm
Baba, I Believe in Your Blessings!!!
1st June 2026
Since i said i have Nothing but Silence now, so this above message from him…
Yet he didn’t come, he didn’t come, he didn’t come……As a wave of Overwhelming pain chokes my throat & lays heavy upon my heart
11.52am
2nd June 2026
Today early morning by 3.30-4am I shared the most heartbreaking moment with him.
& It shall stay between him & me only.
& later all I said is- “Make All my Wrongs- Right!”
That Silence that pain I shared while asking him to end mine & Cocos life, if this is how my life in pain shall be- & Since he showed me,
Coco has already come again, I felt what’s the point of him coming to a life like this
You say Be my Near & Dear!
Yet I ask- Am I truly your dear kept in the engulfment of thy loving embrace………
2.30pm
PS: Started painting on this last work so as to say as Swamis Near & Dear!
One thing if I’ve understood is that if you can make All of your Battles between you & him, Between you & Only Him!!! Then you’re Sure to win! Because you only Need him on your side!
A time will come in every souls journey to Choose Him Over Everything-else!!! Because then you’ll ask Only Him to Fight!!!
2.59pm
Later that lil voice from within
“Everything is about to Change in a big way,
My Child!”
3.30pm
3rd June 2026
Am I under the illusion like my most relations that
I am yours…..
Am I under the illusion like my most relations
“That you’re mine”;
Because what more can there be….
To Justify, that you’ve Not still come….
12.24pm
In Forgiveness I’ve Changed my story from Pain to Love!
9.36pm
Above link to Swamis video
Above link to Swamis video
Once again all the messages are about his Divine timings & Assurance
4th June 2026
I have been standing alone for long, Only because you’re the Truth of my soul!!!
Above link to Swamis darshan
To the One who is Bliss; How can my pain ever touch him; lest alone even make him weep….
11.43am
& again I sobbed profusely asking him,
Either you come….Or put an end to a life like this. Hence forth in our life, it’s either you-
Satya Sai Baba as the Sole Force,
Or the same old sheer Nonsense & this life of unending pain
1.26pm
By late evening I finished this painting of Am I your near & dear, the poem which I had written on 2nd of this month, as it took 2days to finsih this work
You say Be my Near & Dear!
Yet I ask- Am I truly your Near& dear kept in the engulfment of thy loving embrace………
2.30pm.
2/6/2026
Beloved today is Thursday, I’ve offered you every last drop of my prayer & devotion….Now Please Come! Please Come with Blessings, Healing & Abundance for us, For now there’s Truly Nothing more left to offer…. Please come & take away this heavy feeling off my chest once & for all & let Truth & Righteousness Win Now!!!
Otherwise end my life today itself Beloved, Please End my life!!!
Now you have to come as Fulfilment for all your messages of Hopes & Assurance.
8.19pm
I know now, Why Swami asked me to pray to him back in 2010, just before he left his physical body in 2012.
I was in Puttaparthi with my parents & cousins & few relatives.
& he made me pray to him- that being my mother & only & only if he accepts this responsibility as my mother, that my life is solely His Responsibility & No one else’s other than him, then he should come out in an open chair to give darshan.
Which he did in the November of 2010, being Diwali. He took pains to come out in an open chair, even tho his hip injury….
Where for 2-3days prior, we would only get a glimpse of him, as he’d come in a car & on one other day he didn’t even come for darshan.
But that day he came in an open chair & his chair waited right in front of the aisle I was seated in.
I had cried non-stop for more than 45mins straight saying- if you can’t take my life’s responsibility as my mother, then don’t come out at all to give darshan & that shall be your answer to me, that even you can’t carry my burdens.
But he did & his face shone like gold-copper,
And he was taking to someone in the front row, while I was seated on the 10th or 12th row,
crying inconsolably that he heard my prayer,
& not just heard my prayer but accepted to take my life’s responsibility.
And when he felt he gave me enough time, his chair moved forward & immediately my heart cried out- “No Mother, don’t leave, Not yet!”
And he immediately he pushed back the wheel & again waited right at the very same spot, letting me weep some more….as i cried & cried & cried, that he had accepted me the way I am-
broken, with no way out, no cure, no place in this world. Completely wiped out & erased due to this pain & seen as a burden by many.
With No answers to this medical condition &
Only a heart of his Hope. He Accepted me & my Responsibility!!!
Hence even if the world has turned its back upon me- He hasn’t. He knows my Faith & he knows I’ve not given up on my Belief!
Now everyone who turned me down, Shall see I was Never on my own! I Have Him!!! & this shall be the story of my & Cocos journey of Hope that He Never gave up on me!!!
8.45pm
I was, & Am Solely His Responsibility!!! Thank you Mother for Everything!
5th June 2026
Now whatever has to happen- Let it come forth from your Heart;
If Not….
then I’m Alreday heading towards the inevitability of life; which is death!
But Henceforth…
“Not from Force, Only Source!!!”
1.53am
Already surrendered since I asked him to do it by source, Not Force.
When One Only shares with Him things that are hurtful, Something begins to Change;
For His Listening too is A Miracle in itself!
But when you keep talking about it, you keep relieving the same Pain.
The Answer Always is in sharing with him-Alone, Entrusting Him & then in that space of Silence that one can call “Surrender & Peace”;
Something begins to Emerge!
A Change within One’s heart- that He’s there
& He Knows! And Him Knowing Alone, is my Respite & Rescue,
For He Alone Shall Remove me from all of these problems that have no way out & cure!
10.44am
Stay Free from the effects of your own Mind
by being A Child; Who Believes- He’s Never Alone,
Because God is always there & He Knows!
When you lean this way only on God, then you have No Expectations from anyone!!!
Because All Problems Arise From Expectations!!!
& just because His Love still holds me in
An Embrace that says- “Don’t Loose Heart-
Keep Going on!”,
In Love it’s no longer where his body ends & mine begins- For in my every breathless-breath, he too cried. And his love alone through my every darkness breathed An Healing-Light!
A Love like this Alone Blooms within you-
“A New Life!”
3.30pm
I Believe Coco gave up his wings, to be with me,
PS: Finished the work by 7th evening.
In Being Loved by you, Coco- I forgot all Rights & Wrongs & in that I Became Like you- Love!
For Coco & Swami, all these works of love I offer.
Since I had asked him in my yesterday’s post- if am I your dear….& today his reply.
For me this message is in context to Coco, since I started the above painting today, stating his love still keeps me going.
6th June 2026
Baba you have to fulfil your promises of all the given Assurance
Above link to post
Beautiful darshan video with the song- that you’re my mother, father, Freind & everything.
Some works of love come from a Space of such Quietness & Pain…. Because it was
Only God, Who in those heart-breaking moments, sat Besides you.
12.33pm
Some pains that life sends your way, Washes you out of all Residues of Minds- Rights & Wrongs,
Of Yes & No’s & All Polarities of mine & thine, Abandonment & Belongingness.
Baba says whatsoever he gives- Happy Or Painful; is for Ones Good.
Yet when Pain reaches a threshold, then it washes you out in Quietness.
Into A Heart Of God!
Into A Truth where there are No Words!
1.05pm
Baba,
Give us Healing & Blessings of Abundance
Not because of any deservedness….
But Only & Only Because I didn’t Falter in my heart, amidst all the Challenges
If this work truly is about Heart Of God & this Heart within me is Nothing but thou,
Then Reach Out Now!!! Otherwise this child of yours Shall Forever live in Silence!
Because you always say- Ask & it shall be Given, Knock & it shall open!
(As again in the message you gave yesterday night.)
5.13pm
Once Again this above message in context to his yesterdays teachings that share only with him.
Everything is Just A Play!
Baba is Nothing But A Mirror to your Soul!
You Sai “Yes”, He will Show up,
You say “I Believe”- He will make it happen,
You say “No & doubt”, He will go with your thought!
Because Baba is Beyond Science & He’s A Mirror to your Soul!!!
11.15pm
Yes I Believe there’s None Kinder & Graceful than you My Beloved! Now let my Belief show the world how even the most impossible of pains are healed by Sai. Both Physically & deep down spiritual. Because today I offer you This Belief of my Heart!!! Let this be a lesson for many to come, That there’s None kinder than God!!!
None Kinder than you My Sai!!!
11.25pm
For Now I wish to experience Thy Incredible Love for me!!! Everything is just a game- Even this Cancer & Pain. And my Only Move is Belief in you O Sai! That’s my Only move- Faith & Belief!!! 11.41pm
7th June 2026
This Body is not me, This life within is not me,
He’s Painting….(while finishing my & Cocos painting today)
There’s Only Him! There’s Only Him!
11.25am
& as on an autonomous mode….
This Heart kept calling out- “Mother, Mother, Mother”; For this old ragged cloth of a body,
Simply lay- Shut-down in pain; As this life is solely His Responsibility!
PS : The Heart Knows where to go & it must call onto, None but Him!
1.08pm
Just Finished posting yesterday’s work, Now the last painting that i had started yesterday night in context to I Believe poem…has to be re-started on an acrylic paper, as my sketchbook couldn’t handle layers of colour washes & the paper tore.
Post this work, whether I live Or Die,
due to this pain that leaves me sinking,
truly matters not, because I Know without
His Grace, Blessings & Intervention,
Everything is Finished as long as my life here is concerned.
And the only thing that can save me is him!
6.21pm
Was painting the last painting of this work & had applied layers of golden base coat,
Whilst listening to a devotees talk & taking a break for the base colour to dry that’s when he gives a vision…
Vision- He’s seated on a Jhula, swinging back & forth,
smiling & pointing towards me & then he points towards his chest & says-“You’re My Heart! You’re My heart! You’re My Heart!”
& his words keep ringing & echoing as though on an endless loop.
8.48pm
(The above photo is for reference of Swami seated on a jhula)
Above link to talk
& later after a few minutes to the above Vision that Swami gave,
in this talk it’s shared-
the lord comes & resides in your heart, when it’s Pure…
I take a screen-shot of this moment when he shares that….
I mean….What can I say more…. his timing
& the way he communicates & then gives a sign
9.02pm
8th June 2026
Above link to post
Yesterday Swami gave a Vision of him seated on a jhula & today morning, the very first post on my feed
Where my heart breathes;
There all Success & Victory is imminent My Child! When Father has spoken - “You’re My Heart!”,
Then Nothing & None can overrule this Presence of Truth within.
For in doing so, They But Only Negate their own-selves.
& where can One Find Solace on earth,
When one forgets Ones self; God within.
You’re My Heart; Your Success & Victory is imminent!!!
Your Father has spoken,
Now Nothing & None can Overrule this Truth of this heart; My Presence in thee!
11.55am
Yestreday Night while working on this painting….till 2.30am there was this deep pain,
What if Baba doesn’t come….i told him,
Once this work is done, this painting is complete. You have to come!
But what if he doesn’t….
& then there was this great trepidation,
If he doesn’t come, then I’m all alone.
I have Nothing here to go on with this pain…
maybe this painting should never be finished…… So that I can still have Hope to go on one more day, rather than live in this pain hopelessly.
Whilst continuing the painting today,
Once again my heart sobbed profusely,
Whilst listeing to this beautiful satsang,
I Cried out to him in deep-deep pain, that if you don’t choose to come…..
Then take me to you & Coco!
I don’t wish to be here anymore once this project is done, I don’t wish to be here anymore….
I don’t wish to be here, take me to you & coco. 26yrs of a life in this pain are enough maa.
1.35pm
Above link to satsang that I was listening to while painting, about 9 forms of devotion,
& how beautifully they included stories with such soulfully sung bhajans.
Baba I don’t know if I’ve offered you these 9 forms of devotion as Laxmi bai did, & in your Shirdi Sai avatar you gave her 9 coins stating your happiness towards her devotion.
But whatever I offered has only come from this heart! So Please Accept it!
inspite of the above jhula sign…If post this painting,
Swami still Chooses not to come…Then…
I truly don’t wish to be here anymore.
2.52pm
The Painting got done by 5.55pm,
Though I had painted this as an offering to the Belief poem written on 6th…
But something within said,
I should share this painting in context to today mornings assurance he gave.
Hence I’ve shared here.
Baba, there’s Nothing left on my part anymore with this work.
If you Choose Not to come, then please take me! Because this weight upon my heart is unbearable to live with.
6.58pm
With this above Assurance all I wish to say is- “Thank you for being there & taking care of Everything!!!”
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