Heart of God (continue part 5)
- Jan 31
- 30 min read
Updated: 5 hours ago
30th January 2026
Swami allows Space to breathe…
When I asked him to reveal the damage of lupus on my body…he Chose to remain quiet regrading that, While blessed this work, in yesterday’s morning Vision.
So I’ll let it be
When Swami becomes quiet- then One should be Silent too.
Later some heartfelt words offered to him, that Swami inspired to be shared with this painting done on 1st June 2024
Let Truth be met by Truth!
8.45am
Maybe…some lives just End in Wait….
Whilst they carry tears within as Unsung-Songs
& Smile- For they Touched Gods Heart-
By Selflessly Being His Love!
So that this Earth could Breathe & Hope could sing!
Swami sends this beautiful video of him doing Abhishekh to Shirdi idol seated on Shesha Sai.
Above link to post
For Love is Giving of Yourself As Breath of God that whispers- In Thy Giving & Through Thy Brokenness- Thy Soul is made Whole,
& then Pain too turns into A Blessing!
Maybe Someday this Wait…too Shall be met
With Truth, That Alone knew it’s Givings!
10.51am
I was quiet…Since Swami was quiet, trying to finish Coco’s painting which for some reason has been prolonging & not getting done, due to this pain.
& By evening I pushed myself to go for a short walk, as the pain was intensely unbearable, due to the nerve triggers on my scalp.
Later by night, Swami inspired me to share the basic crux of His teaching that he had revealed to me a few years back & even through this work with Atul.
As Atuls nature of work goes up & down in scale-with dry period of work, followed by intense travels & endless working-hours, Where he tries to find his feet of Balance.
I shared, this is Babas ways that we all face these pauses & challenges in life, to make us connect to Him within, As our very own heart!
To know that we truly are God & this Heart is his dwelling place!
So these long pauses in ones work or troubles in life & pains are only meant as a redirection, of going inwards in that Space of Silence,
Where this Truth is revealed.
& Ones Minds howling; it’s irrelevant thoughts during such testing periods simply loose it’s power, When experienced God as Ones Own Self!
& then…
What surfaces & gets done from that Space of Truth; from God- “Simply becomes A Blessing!”
This every soul eventually has to go through,
Not as a punishment, But to redirect One’s journey back home!
Later Swami reached out this way…
31st January 2026
Yesterday night due to extreme pain-
i told Swami, I’ll just lay here & sleep by your lotus feet.
Upon waking…Swami hadn’t sent any signs of reaching out to my prayer…
& Just a couple of minutes to that thought…
He gives A Vision-
im seated by Swamis feet & as i glance up- he’s Seated on Shesha Sai with 7hoods.
He’s seated very Gracefully, while he’s looking at me with that bewitching smile.
And the entire scene is beautiful, While i hear these words being sung- “Namo Sai Narayanaya, Namo Satyanarayana”, as though playing on a loop.
I’m absorbed in that Pure Divine Love- Just looking at him, Sweetly smiling at me & then
He shows that this Bewitching form of him seated upon Shesha Sai is right within my heart.
That my heart has become His Dwelling place & the above lines of music kept echoing.
5.50am
Swami,
Thank you for Everything…But I’ll share this,
Only After you answer my prayer…
Since you came as Lord Vishnu- the lord of creation, Now let Shesha Sai show the way- that from this point of deliberating pain- Where to thou wish to take me.
2.07pm
Don’t meet me half way now…
Instead Come to where I’m at & once & for all- Answer regarding this pain, For I’m tired going on like this.
Later this message from Swami giving assurance,
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Above link to message
Truly his form is Love!
1st February 2026
After a very, strenuous short walk…due to pain…
I had to literally drag myself home & unable to bear the draining energy, I simply crashed on the bed- Struggling to Breathe & gather strength!
i tell him- Please keep your feet upon my head,
So if i die- I’d rather die this way- with your feet touching my head- as the pain has got too unbearable Swami.
& by touch of thy feet - I can leave Peacefully…
So I imagine myself such, to help me go pass this moment.
But once again there are no planes or dimensions left where Swami is not there & makes his Presence seen,
He shows me- His feet, which ive kept on my head- In Oneness flows & become a part of my body & it all turns into one fluid motion of Energy…
Then i clearly hear his Voice saying- “It’s my body, It’s my body, It’s my body”,
“We are One, There’s no separation- We are One, We are One, We are One!!!”
9.18am
That Swamis feet- As we Perceive are no longer outside - Nor seen as separate- distinct from mine, Nor different from any other form for that matter- He shows All are One-body of God!
For most these may seem as only words- But the Enormity of this Truth is in the Experience.
The threads are no longer bound into a form of a body- they’ve loosened & all flow as fluid energy of God.
The mind that thought itself as some limited kerchief is absorbed into the mindless form of God!
9.24am
Tell me Where Swami is Not…
Since 11am today afternoon-
His Voice within kept saying-
“There are 17 tumours”,
this voice is akin to how the poems are given- Where until the words aren’t noted down, they keep echoing endlessly within my conscience. 12.58pm
Just yesterday afternoon i wrote to him-
Don’t meet me half way now…
Instead Come to where I’m at & once & for all- Answer regarding this pain, For I’m tired going on like this.
& then today, he gives this message regarding how far damage is there upon my body due to lupus.
Swami you have to give a sign regarding these 17 tumours- if this is what you wish to include. Because your word is Final. None can Overrule it!
As I’m done being Overruled in life!!!
& I’m not going to Subject myself anymore
to any test, as I would earlier on behest of doctors…
Where Nothing would show-up & then being subjected to A Constantly Scrutiny.
For medical science ain’t that advanced as Sai-ence; So Now you make the way!
1.08pm
Swami if you’ve said such a big thing- then the Sign too has to be Big enough that can’t be Overruled!
I Believe you- But if you’re going to make me share this…
Then the sign has to be tangible enough & not just subtle as inner-voice.
2.21pm
Later Baba sends this message to my above feelings…
Swami, Who am i to Surrender…When it’s your body…Your Heart, Your Mind….
Yes thou Art All Pervading as you showed in yesterdays experience …that it’s your body, heart, mind.
Swami sends this message to include as he’s Standing with Shesha Sai in the backdrop to give the message of Universality of Love!
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The water drop no longer exists by its own,
For the Ocean has Swallowed it Whole,
This Body is Body of God…
This Heart is His Dwelling place…
This Soul is woven in His Breath…
& the Mind No Longer thinks…Decides Or makes plans…
The thought is Given…The story is Already written, Now My Beloved Shall Reach Out to Show-
“It’s Already Done!!!”
Because the words came from a place of Heart- Where No thought is born!
6.34pm
Swami, Again I’ve taken the first step based on my Belief that it is you who’s answered me from within…regarding tumours, By going ahead & posting this chapter,
But now you have to do the remaining by giving a sign!
& immediately from within - “Chala Santhosham Bangaroo”
7.11pm
2nd February 2026
i guess…it’s too much to ask God to meet you, Where you’re at. Because Swami hasn’t given signs regarding the tumours yet….
1.00am
Now you’ll hand it over to me- Everything!
1.05am
later this message from him
Where there is Oneness, There’s No Struggle Beloved!
7.12am
Thy Heart within mine Breathes Coco- Thank you for keeping me the way you did- For Loving me through Vulnerabilities of life’s pain. Thy tears soft lay upon my soul & mine you’ve woven them into
“A Gratitude of Love!”
9.39am
Yesterday late night post 10.30pm,
Swami intuitively inspired me to paint this work of Mother Gayatri.
Ive used the actual photograph of Gayatri Maa’s idol, that one can see in the Gayatri temple in Parthi,
& Given the beautiful way Mother is adorned,
i wanted to keep the image as it is,
So i collaged the picture in the painting.
Later Swami sent this video of his Darshana
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& especially this video he sent today
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Where Beloved Swami is sprinkling the holy water during Dasara celebrations.
And the song too is of Praising the Divine mother…
For Swami to send this post my way- today,
Given that i just shared Gayatri Maas painting again shows that Mother has already sent her Blessings!
Again this video here is Swami materialising Hiranyagarbha lingam- Which again he sent as an assurance for healing- Given this picture of Swami with the lingam was widely shared.
The Hiranyagarbha Lingam(Golden Cosmic Egg) was materialised by Swami on May 5, 1991, describing it as the "Cosmic Seed of Creation" representing the Divine Trinity. Devotees believe this sacred, golden-colored lingam symbolizes the primordial source of the universe and holds immense spiritual power for healing physical and spiritual ailments Swami,
this work can only be taken ahead, Once you fully answer regarding the tumour’s…Where & are they something to be concerned about… Though i have no fear in me. With the kind of pain i live day in & out- There’s No Fear of death…
Just that I’m tired of continuing this way. So you decide where you wish to take this work, Until then I’ll be Quiet!
4.23pm
Later messages from Beloved
& then he sends an example of how this photograph of the Hiranyagarbha lingam, materialised by Swami,
saved a child & brought him back to life.
Baba knows the pain I’m in, hence he’s sending messages to Assure & Uplift me…
Above link to the post with an assurance that he walked ahead of me through these storms
Above link to the post, here Ganesha- Vighnaharta Aarti
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Most times only this prayer has been upon my lips- to merge in you, to be home.
3rd February 2026
Morning message
Yesterday Swami gave me an intuition that the Hiranyagarbha lingam picture of his be painted…
So today since morning i was working on the painting… later he gave this poem, while the work was almost done…
To thy Belief Born from A Simple Heart; Where those Prayers manifested Healings of Love!
This Shivalinga- Hiranyagarbha carries within it- “The Silent Calls of All My Children’s in its womb, As Answered Prayers of my Love!”
Behold this image of God; in your moments of darkest pain- “Where Healing is Given Even before it’s asked!”,
For, I Thy Father- Knows thy pain even before a tear-drop falls.
Hold on! Hold on! Hold on! To Thy Belief; that made the Hiranyagarbha lingam Be-born!
5.13pm
Beloved, to thy Promised healing, i ask you to Bless this work of love & Reveal to me now- what is it that thou shall heal me of!
For this Beloved Lord has already given His promise of healing, even before he’s given me the answer of what he’s about to heal in this broken body- Where in resides His Soul!
Swami along with Blessing this work,
tell me about these 17 tumours & what truly are you gonna heal to revive a new life in me that shall be seen as “A Gratitude of Gratitudes of my Soul!”
6.03m
i don’t know if it will ever be enough…My tears, My Silence, My Prayers & this Pain…
10.17pm
Just waiting for a sign from you mother & answers regarding this exhausting pain
10.26pm
4th February 2026
that lil voices from within-
I’m carrying you upon my eye-lashes
4.19am
Later these messages
Once again due to intense pain, I’ve barely slept for 3 hours. But hopefully Swami gives me strength to continue my morning walks,
Like yesterday, both Atul & i went to Nariman Point for walk, Since Atul is training for Everest, he runs, While i do my walking.
While walking i asked Swami if you don’t reach out even today regarding the tumours message you gave me a couple of days back, by confirming with a Sign, then I’ll remove that bit of info.
& from within very quietly Swami asks me
“Keep, Keep the message”, So I shall follow this guidance from inner Sai.
Just hoping Swami does reach out today with a sign of Blessing for yesterday’s Hiranyagarbha lingam painting & even tell me regarding my health.
10.32am
this message where he says - if you’ve cried in your prayers…then know Sainath will answer them & give you tears of satisfaction too.
Later in the afternoon, i was speaking to Swami in my heart, saying- maybe you’re delaying answering me, because it’s concerning- my health condition…
Thinking that I’m Dependent only on you mother,
Then why this delay…
I remember in his last days- When Coco was completely bedridden & could only limp his way- by Atul holding a towel under his belly for support- he would refuse to pee- potty, even though we would make him wear diapers.
& when the pain in his hind legs had got worse,
& he couldn’t even sit upright without our help,
Yet he’d wait… At times for two days & only after support of a body harness, Atul would lift him & we’d take him down. Yet he’d hold his bowels not to even spoil the elevator.
This Sense of Self-Reliance & Dignity even animals carry.
Hence i tell him- “I’m only dependent on you Swami.” Then why this delay.
& just a few minutes to what I tell Swami, He says,
“Beloved Fear Not- I carry you upon my breath!”
Where i actually see him, again seated upon Shesha Sai, within my heart.
11.47am
Swami sends this message which says-
“Now all the burdens of my life I’ve offered in your hands, My Win, My defeat is in your hands, the only difference between me & you is that I’m a human & you’re God, While I’m in the hands of world, But the world is in your hand”
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Baba I’ve given it to you Already, all my problems long back & I’m very tired of this excruciating pain- which is now affecting the nerves around my face- sinus points, making it difficult to keep going- as the muscles around feels taut, same like when hands nerve trigger. Baba kindly intervene!
For I need you!
4.53pm
As today morning itself he said from within- “Keep, Keep the message”, & I told him I shall follow this message coming from Swami within my heart, even though he’s not yet given the sign.
Swami inspired me to share this painting here, painted back in 5th May 2024- titled Coco Now Please Take me home
Tired & Exhausted as life in me dies- & He Breathes Hope within the way he shimmers up the sky
As i reminiscent how Beloved Baba held my palms in his hands & lovingly with Concern showed I’ve given you all of my strength, As Hope against Hope I’ve carried his light- So when the stars above get burnt out- i shall ignite another fire ball in the sky. To show the way, the path is beyond One’s mind-
For To Hope is to Believe- Even though life may beat you down, leaving you such that there’s
No strength left- then on wings of Hope you Glide, to Show True Love carries you in its arms & makes you fly.
One hand above, One below, as in the vision baba showed when he held my palms in his hands & kept rubbing them, with That Gaze of Concern & Love
As today Atul too kept pressing all sinus points that are tearing deep within my bones & nerves,
to relive me off the pain & help me Breathe!
If not for Coco & him- it would be difficult to carry on like this.
8.01pm
Swami didn’t reach out with blessings the painting & sign for tumours message & my heart broke…
There’s Nothing left to ask or say Swami…Nothing with a pain like this & it’s ok if you No longer wish to answer my prayer too.
10.08pm
5th February 2026
Since Swami didn’t reach out with any signs of Blessing the painting,
So i imagine myself at Shirdi & parthi with the Hiranyagarbha painting & offer the work to baba.
After a while, Swami gives A Vision -
i see the painting has become the entire sky,
like it’s projected, but it’s breathing & is Alive; as the dark clouds swirl & Swami is physically standing, As I hear these words…
Who’s this i that’s offering….
For Theres No i, Yet there’s only I.
6.05am
meaning there’s no me offering, as this “I”, is Swami, So who’s offering to whom.
While he says the above words- i see energy with which the painting is breathing- in monochrome tones as painted,
But it’s Alive & then I see Swami walking towards me-
He touches the lingam in the space between my eyebrows, known as third-eye & everything dissolves in it’s vibrance; in it’s love- as he says-
This darkness too is His Gift- it’s not outside of this light- but all within & at the touch of being kissed by this light it dissolves-
like the liquid fire emanating from a volcano-
Only that this energy of light is soothing-calm as it washes out Everything.
The Hiranyagarbha lingam now breathes as the heart within.
That pain in truth is A Gift-for realising- i is him.
& the Hiranyagarbha lingam brings forth- this creation- as a thought, sustains & then dissolves everything in it’s light-
there is only truth- expanding like love expanding, containing, dissolving.
& by the above Vision- Swami not only blessed the painting, But even gave the sign that the message he gave me from within on the 1st of this month, regarding my health- “there are 17 tumours”, has indeed come from him.
The Vision was to Reveal, that Healing is in knowing - there’s no i, Yet there’s only I.
6.12am
The above message of tumour,
Only goes to show that last year, due to some intense pain I was in for months, polyps were seen in a scan.
And I was asked to undergo a surgery for that, along with a surgery even for sinus pain that was affecting the optic eye.
But since my body has a history to react strongly to certain medications, let alone even anaesthesia, & given the condition that they had no clue what autoimmune disease I had,
One of the doctors was reluctant.
& Swami too had given a sign back then that temporary surgeries won’t be helpful,
Until complete healing occurs.
Now I understand why he said temporary cure… Because inflammation due to lupus, is known to create tumours in ones body.
Systemic lupus erythematosus (SLE) is associated with a slightly higher overall cancer risk (roughly 10–15% higher) compared to the general population, with a 3- to 4-fold increased risk of non-Hodgkin lymphoma and higher incidences of lung, liver, vulvar, and thyroid cancers
A polyp is a specific type of tumor (or, more generally, an abnormal growth) that projects from a mucous membrane, usually appearing as a small lump or stalk-like growth. A tumor is a broader, more general term for any abnormal mass of tissue, which can be either benign (noncancerous) or malignant (cancerous).
All polyps are considered a form of tumor, but not all tumors are polyps.
So based on the information above, & given there’s no medical cure for lupus, except being administered heavy immunosuppressants which are not beneficial in the longer run.
Swami hence stated going for a surgery is a temporary cure & it won’t solve this problem.
And yet he waited to give me the sign that the tumour message indeed came from him, As he Blessed the painting & even gave the significance of Hiranyagarbha lingam.
He knows best, as I hold on to him- & Only lean & am dependent on him.
& there’s no fear in me even to die.
As I’ve been dying many deaths in this excruciating pain for so long.
For me, even death is a respite.
Just that this time I wish to go home, that’s all.
2.16pm
& then these messages
Swami the way you’ve been Giving through this work…
Same way in my life too- Whatever it is,
henceforth you only give.
Let it come from you & none. You & Coco that’s all! I want that acknowledgment for mine & Cocos life coming only from you!!!
Let my life now reflect- how you see me- that’s all!!!
4.55pm
Everything got burnt & destroyed with this pain…Now whether it’s life or death- let it come only from you! My soul is one with you Sai- this Connection is the only Truth I’ll take with me. Other than that- Nothing!!!
4.58pm
Swami,
i don’t know much…But it feels the work here is done- So whensoever you wish for me to share- then please let me know! And healing is upto you. 7.40pm
Swami inspires to share the heartfelt words of Gratitude with these three art works.
This painting My Rainbow God was shared on 21st March 2020
This painting of Pink lotus feet was shared on 7th March 2020
& this notebook pen & ink sketch of Coco & me, was shared on 19th February 2020
If we can live- “leaving everything Suspended”-
in a space of No mind,
& live life Where Music breathes in Pause…Knowing Everything is Already taken care of,
In Knowing Rather than Thinking…
In Experiencing Rather than Mulling- Doubting-Complaining…
We Shall see that everything that this life Offered, Bitter-Sweet was indeed A Blessing!
That Gratitude is all that your breath is here to give- Gratitude that God Loves you & has carried you as His!
For what God Gives can Never be depleted Nor Stolen.
What life took was Never yours- & in Return
for All of that Loss- It Placed Gods Heart within yours!
In the end- What we Receive Far Exceeds what life took from us!
& in this Knowing Alone we are Home!!!
8.57pm
6th February 2026
Wish to share this painting done on 30th September 2021,
& this painting offered on 16th November 2021... To go along my heartfelt feelings I felt today morning
The only feeling that I had upon waking was- Thank you, Thank you, Thank you Swami,
Thank you for without your Grace, Given the health situation I’ve been living in- I’d be decimated!
5.31am
Swami I shall share this work, Once you wish to, But Finish what you’ve started. You’ve been promising me, that you’ll come home. Then pls come.
Once again this below writing, Swami inspired to share with these paintings
A Kiss Of God & to that Eternal Spring of Hope 14th June 2024
Bend down now & lift me up - 2nd May 2024
I’m quiet & centred in you. With Coco’s Passing,
A Sense of Fearlessness surfaced, Along with
An Unabashed Truth, That made me find my feet in Self.
An Acceptance to minds that are hurting & hence hurt, Yet seeing their limitedness- there was Only Prayers within me left.
But largely Love for my Self to walk away….
For their limitedness could no longer contain my Soul.
& hence I prayed that someday, they too shall be met by Love!
For to Grow within Ones Self - When Pain is a constant companion-That Aloneness Carries it own wealth.
& Truth is Blazing; Yet Sustaining, Where the bird once pinioned by its wings- Now in its soul- flies free!
So yes, this work shall be shared, But there are Promises to be kept…
For thou shall come Home & Heal all that within me seems dying!
For love has lend me its wings on Hope,
So Beloved Fulfil thy Promises & give respite
to my soul!
So that this work shall ignite Hope,
Amongst thy Children’s & Show them the way Back-Home!
4.14pm
Yesterday I had asked him to Acknowledge my & Coco’s life through this pain & he did…
to my above heartfelt, with this message below, He Acknowledged my years of Silence.
& His Acknowledgment is Enough to hold you in Stead!
Above link to post
& since I had painted the Hiranyagarbha painting in monochrome, Swami- The Divine artist is standing here & painting my monochromes into colours.
For some reason he’s sending this message again…So I’ll keep it
7th February 2026
Today while in the park, I struggled to walk.
Not just sinus pain…But breathing had got so shallow, that every couple of steps, I had to sit, So that I wouldn’t pass out.
I missed Coco. He just knew everything.
Pain makes you quiet.
Anyone…Who reminds one,
The Beauty of their Soul;
Is Gods Breath upon this Earth.
& Coco to me was that!
10.20am
Just wish to share This painting here done on 23rd November 2021, as an honour to Coco with the poem
All Problems Arise Through Expectations,
While Acceptance is the most Graceful Prayer…
Beloved from Coco & I,
In Acceptance for all the Bitter-pills.
This above message that Swami gave,
is Truth of life. Most people that one considers as family- truly aren’t.
& one should be Thankful for All that life shows. & especially walk away, When it gets detrimental to Ones Soul. For you can only love all- By First Loving Your-Self & dogs very well teach you that “Self-Love!”
So for some reason this chapter is My Gratitude to Coco.
& even this video art here, that was shared in 2018 with these words
Somebody asked a Dog!
“Oh Do you want to choose differently?”
& he said- “When I made the Choice to choose you…I made it until Eternity!”
Coco made me feel this way through this very tiring pain, that we’d fly….& I know he’d Choose me over & over again…
later Swami even inspires, that this painting too be shared here, done on 6th June 2021,
with a few lines of the poem shared along with it back then-
In pain…Every second I’m dying,
But aren’t we all approaching death,
It’s just that Pain has made me more Aware, Aware of ever second, As I stifle to breathe,
Aware of these gasping-breaths, too as His gifts, Aware of the Preciousness of Time-
& Gratefulness for having Coco as God beside!
The Only love that’s Pure,
God-like is the Love of a dog.
& I pray people view animals with kindness.
For in this grand scheme of things- they are much more in-tune with the Conscience & they lend A Kindness that feels like Gods kiss upon your soul!
I see Shirdi babas face, as he tells me- “I’m yours, You’re mine”,
11.26am
Baba if truly you mean this, then not just an answer, regarding where are these 17 tumours,
But even is it concerning…
Later these messages from Swami,
Especially this one, As after showing me on 5th that the Hiranyagarbha painting is Alive, with clouds swirling…He again goes Silent…Only to re-assure, he’s here, figuratively watching from the clouds…
Somewhat I’m starting to understand This Rythm- Where he gives & then he goes silent for a few days, to let the lesson given- be absorbed, Before he gives another one.
8th February 2026
Beloved,
After sharing yesterdays Gratitude offering for yours & Cocos love,
For me this work is done…
Swami, As you know in my heart,
i came to Parthi & offered this work at your lotus feet & even the “Golden Shawl”- that Shirdi Baba had wrapped around me- at the very beginning of this work, i kept it there- neatly & nicely folded.
For Beloved i don’t want the world Nor any acknowledgement of any worldly nature…
I am with you, as you, in you & that’s enough!!!
So you tell what you Wish to do now,
For I’ve seen the fragility of this world
& my core & foundation is only you.
I know I’m dying on bodily terms-
Hence you decide, When & How to go ahead with this work.
12.51am
Thank you For Everything & am ever Grateful the way Cocos life & Love you’ve shared here as an integral part of Heart of God- For Dogs do carry that Heart, mostly all dogs, even when they are abused- they show such kindness, that Humans by & large lack.
Except in some cases they may have picked up on anger, for being met inhumanely. But both dogs & horses have gone to prove to bring an emotional well-being as therapy dogs.
Again He responds as that lil voice within, when I offered the Golden shawl back…
In Very Expansion of Love;
You Steal My Heart- My Child!
For Only through Ones Love-
Can “I” be bound!
1.08am
Later, In Shirdi within my heart i go…
Baba I’ve left the Golden shawl at your feet too, Baba what will i do with this world-
i Only Need you!!! Even though you’re my very Breath!!!
1.25am
Early morning Suprabhatam
Above link to post
Rest in the Heart; for
The Heart is where
He Dwells, & Dissolve in
the hum; The Hum of
His Breath
9.20am
Above link to post
Yes Only God has your back…Which is true for every soul.
& When you’re Centred in Him then He becomes your world & the so called “world”, Cease to Exist!
11.29am
Swami made me share about dogs being abused just today morning…& then this,
Pls see Above link to post of his adoption
& just now I came upon this video…that made me cry my heart out!
This Golden retriever was kept his entire life in an breeding facility, to be used for breeding puppies,
So that the person could earn his way, by abusing this dog.
& only when the breeding facility shut, was he taken to a rescue home. Where finally he got adopted by an older gentleman.
This entire work is about Heart Of God!
& it breaks me to see that we humans lack Kindness that dogs carry within their Silence.
His eyes spoke for all the lost years of his life. Goldens & Labrador’s are known to live a maximum of 14-15yrs. In rare cases they live beyond 15.
And this kind soul here gave away his entire life, so that some person who kept him captive, could earn his greed.
We speak about Sacrifice, But Animals are the ones who are every now and then sacrificed.
Yet he only met humans with kindness.
And the old gentleman knew & understood the dog’s pain.
I don’t think we as humans have ever sacrificed anything in comparison to this soul.
Once I had asked Swami, Why do you allow such atrocities to be met upon animals who silently bear.
As I had then come across an heart-wrenching video, that I can’t even speak about, nor share here.
And he said- it’s Collective Karma. When the negative collective karma reaches its threshold, then many ignorant souls too get swallowed in the negativity that humans do upon one another, While not even sparing animals.
But when an innocent soul is Sacrificed such, then his soul is taken to God & God sees to it that their sacrifice isn’t unseen with the birth they receive in their next life.
Yet i had to share this here as Swami for some reason made me share about the abuses animals face today morning,
that’s why Never buy puppies from breeders. Because they simply abuse the male as well as female dogs until they can be used & then in very fragile condition, they leave them to die.
I don’t think any devotee of Swami has done any sacrifice in the face of such love & kindness this soul showed. For here in lies The Heart Of God! Heart Of Swami!!! Where animals like him, are met with inhumanness, Yet they only emanate Love through their being. Animals are anytime higher in the evolutionary ladder when it comes to Love. Humans are the one that need to take birth after birth for thousands of years to learn- Kindness & Love! Animals don’t need to come as humans to understand & grow in love.
5.40pm
I just cried my heart out…Sai maa, Please Give that dog- his soul- All of my blessings!
Please keep him in the embrace of your love 🙏🙏🙏
Later after a while…This message
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& to that Overwhelming feeling…that why do innocent souls go through such pains…
9th February 2026
Baba I’ve taken all my steps towards you…I Really have… But it just breaks my heart when innocent souls get used up this way,
like yesterday with that dog. His entire youth years, he was used for someone’s selfishness.
And only in the winter of his life- he got a family, home & love he deserves.
So you decide even for this work, What you wish to do. You were suppose to tell me about where these tumours are & if there’s anything more related to this pain, that you need to let me know. & Even if these tumours are anything to be concerned for.
But more than anything,
Now you have to come & give the healing to us-
“A New Beginning!”
& for that you’ll has to take the remaining steps & meet me where I’m at. That’s all maa.
& i sincerely pray from my heart, that you elevate the conscience of all,
So that as humans we are kinder & loving,
Not just selfish, angry, filled with greed, jealousy, hatred…hurting others,
For our endless Selfish desires.
9.18am
Today is my dad’s 75th Birth anniversary, He too did his best- Given his health condition- & hence knew & understood my struggles with this pain.
I pray that you reach out to me today regarding these tumours…
I know he would be Happy with this work, knowing how you’ve revealed to me so much bout this pain, that would not come up on any tests.
Later from within he says-
I’ll come to your house my child, I’ll come to your house!
12.51am
& then these messages from Swami, & especially this Abhishek of sugar representing divine grace & sweetness for blessings, healing & enhancing spiritual practice.
Swami knows my heart through & through so lot of things he guides…and someday this learning shall help others too, for he insisted in chits to keep this message.
10th February 2026
Swamis message…
We all are given our shares of Pain…
Yet the Pain of Ones life- may shape them- But Not Define them…
What defines us, is what we make from that Pain! Do we let that Pain Reduce us…
Or turn it into fodder for Souls-Growth!
Do we become that which Abused us…
Or Break the cycle of Pain For the earth breathes upon souls,
Who have the Courage to stay centred within the Self!
True Power comes from Love; Broken wings are mended with kindness & hope! May we bargain the hurtful mind to Be A Beacon for those lost! Then truly this Gift of Pain has Served its Purpose! 4.05pm
For All who need time…Must Rest,
For when Pain teaches, Gods Breath weaves Beauty to thy soul! Until Pain hasn’t served it’s purpose- Rest in it’s Silence-
For God Shall meet you there- in that inner-strength!
From within that lil voice-
The More you Trust me; The more i Smile; The more My Quietness you Breathe; The more i Sing to you of All the Promises of my Light!!!
For i Never forsake the One- Who Gives me all & Waits…& Waits as Patience of my every breath!!!
4.14pm
Swami gives this message that’s in-sync with the above words of Trust.
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11th February 2026
1.29am
Swami wakes me up with a vision-
He’s walking & there are a few shadow forms around him, i can see his gown- but his gown isn’t orange, it’s soaked in Blood, Red in colour,
& I can see it’s made of drops of blood; that are dripping down.
& then i hear him say- “Blood Cancer”.
Baba even though I’ve noted it down…
But I don’t wish to wait for another 4-5days, To receive a sign of confirmation for this above message regarding cancer, even though you did mention in the Vision,
Yet…it’s a Big disclosure, So I pray you give a sign.
& I'm Not gonna do any chemo therapy nor any test or medication or see any doctors, for I’m tired.
“You’re my doctor”,
& Im in No way going to subject myself to any more of this mental pain, Where medical Science is unable to help…
So Vibhuti Alone shall be my medication.
I’ll paint the vision you gave me & I Hope you shall give me a Sign, before we share this work tonight.
2.07am
I googled regarding Blood Cancer & I see these markers of swollen lymph nodes around throat & groin, along with other symptoms of fatigue, weight loss, bleeding…
The lymph nodes in my neck area, have been swollen since last 2months or even more…
& Since last couple of weeks I’ve felt a knot like swelling around my groin too, which I had shared with Atul after Swami had mentioned, there are 17 tumours.
So it does to an extent “collaborate with the facts stated above”,
Though only Swami can tell more…
After what he shared my sleep just disappeared…So I was listening to some talk & in-between I was checking insta, When i see this Darshana video of Bilvashtakam chant
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just to confirm I even ask him in chits is it really “Blood-Cancer”…. I cast chits & one lands inside.
I keep it near Swamis padukas & take a picture
& the answer is I ❤️ God. Meaning include this message in Heart of God work. So Yes!
Swami…
Life met me Unkindly, Now you meet me with Kindness!!! Please Answer today itself!!!
6.03am
Swami I have No Fear even if it’s Blood Cancer, because I know you’re there for me & I Trust you!!!
So please give a sign today itself…
So I can share with Atul & mom too, along with sharing it in our work.
9.00am
& later this message from Swami, Which again voices out my earlier feeling, that “I have No Fear, I Trust You!!!”
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While starting the painting of mornings vision,
i wrote to him…
Baba,
With as much as Truth I’ll paint this based on the mornings Vision…On Completion of this work…you give a sign, A Tangible one in our home now!
If it’s a big disclosure of my illness, then the sign too has to be for me- Direct!!!
12.09pm
Finished the panting & have offered it to Swami! 4.14pm
Swami just now while I was listening to this talk, you mentioned that if one does his/her duty proper…then Swami comes looking for them.
Baba this work is not even duty to me,
It’s Pure Love; to paint the Vision & the message you gave this morning.
I Hope you come looking for me, just as it’s shared in the talk….& Re-confirm the message related to this illness.
5.50pm
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O Weave for me,
Those wings of
“Emerald-healing”, My Sai…
For I’ve been “Home-bound”,
For way too long…
“Common Now let’s Fly!!!“
8.52pm
& again these messages of Assurance…
just Finished uploading & from within that lil voice again- Thank you for Trusting me, My Child!
10.17pm
I just told him- “Common Now, Let’s Fly!!!”,
& then this message, where he’s saying,
He carries us, when the path is uncertain, with a picture of an aeroplane.
12th February 2026
in pain one becomes quiet. I was feeling…maybe
I will not share this information about my health with Atul & mom…
That’s when from within Swami says-
When we Share of Love…Then that Love Expands; To Give Hope to others…
5.49am
& it’s True! This is Purely Swami Grace that kept me here, & His & Cocos Love that kept me going. So later in the morning I did share about
Blood Cancer to both Atul & mom.
Saying He’s the doctor & it’s upto him what he wishes to do with my life, as he’s given this life & Only he can save it!
Early morning darshan video followed by other videos
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For yesterdays heart-felt poem, I wanted to paint an artwork & Once Finished I offered it to Swami. 1.17pm
O Weave for me,
Those wings of
“Emerald-healing”, My Sai…
For I’ve been “Home-bound”,
For way too long…
“Common Now let’s Fly!!!“
After offering him the painting & finishing cooking,
I prayed to Lord Hanuman to give me physical strength, So that not only can I attend to my daily house-affairs, but paint; do my exhibition & even this work.
As lord Hanuman was not only intelligent but even physically powerful.
After chanting the hanuman-chalisa, this is the first message that comes on my feed.
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Was missing Coco badly…As it’s 12th today & 12th April 2022, he had passed on…so broke down in tears…
Though it’s good he’s not here…Wouldn’t want him to go through pains considering my physical downfall…
& in a while Swami sends this message to uplift my spirit.
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13th February 2026
He inspires me to share one earlier paintings to go with this poem that he gave me today morning while in the park.
The painting was done on 27th April 2024
In the Stillness of the trees & to the hum of natures breath; your soul resides.
A power to be by thy Self, Where roots go deep
& even if pain makes you weep,
Yet you stand your ground….
For darkness & breathing-space is needed for every seeds growth,
if you can “be by your self”, you’re in tune with the songs of the birds & rhythm of nature that mirrors God
& it’s not about speaking much,
Nor the weight of a single thought,
Nor the sufferings of ones body or mind,
But a knowing that you’re One with him-
you art nature, tree, bird, God-Divine!
If you can be by yourself through some of the most difficult phases of your life- then you’ll be aware- this breath, is the breath of God!
9.04am
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4.14pm
When The Heart of God Breathes Within…Then it Raises you in Conscience-
You see All as Child Of God!
For in Gods eyes there are No Judgements!!!
There’s Peace, Quietness, An Ease- That Your Being Emanates!
Ones Mind Blooms Fresh- Not from the eyes of past- Nor traumas that generations have carried in being Lost!
You See the Pain that made others Bleed of Fear
& Hate & Simply by your Presence; Breathe A Space- Vast & deep…..
& in that Being they meet Kindness of God;
That Opens their hearts & minds in Remembrance of Their Inner Essence-
The Self; that can Never be Sullied!
When Heart Of God Breathes- then you Forget yourself & in that Forgetfulness;
For the very first time- you Give!
The way God Gives!
Once again the talk in the video are on similar planes, where Ramana Maharshi who had throat cancer, but was beyond bodily suffering, in ones knowing of ones Self!
Body goes through its course, But Self remains untouched!
Later these messages…
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14th February 2026
He inspires to share 3 paintings to go with this poem, he gave this morning…
this painting was done on 6th August 2022,
this here was done 15th October 2021,
I had shared this artwork with this beautiful poem that Swami had given me-
“I’ve painted your sky with flowers & stars…For Everyone deserves to be loved!”, Just like Everyone deserves to experience His Grace through this work.
This work here was done on 27th June 2019
For my every tear,
He has Shielded me with Grace; See it’s no longer my body , But His in pain,
He’s the heart within & Now this Heart;
is Paving New Ways!
Yes, for my every tear-
He’s Sheilded me with Grace!
& to all those years of Silence- He Breathed this work in me- “For Pain is Universal”,
& someday this Blanket of His Grace-
Shall protect others too, like me; Who in this world had No Respite from their pains.
8.10am
Some beautiful messages he sends
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later…
This video & it’s message, I’ve experienced it, for many years…
Where most people, that one considers as “family”, truly aren’t…
For some reason Atul & Coco stayed, but most left.
Just yesterday in the poem, I had shared that
one should be centred in ones self & be able to be by oneself when storm gathers,
the same way, Swami would often give an example- When Radha spelled backwards becomes Aadhar.
& Radha’s- Aadhar- meaning her foundation was always Krishna.
So in the same way- Ones basis, foundation or centre should always be God, which for me is Swami.
And this message in the video just voiced out my yesterday’s feelings.
I was feeling a bit sad by evening thinking “will my life ever Change???”,
It just feels like I’m stuck in some never-ending whirlpool of pain…
& Swamis this message again gave me Hope & Strength.
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