Heart of God (continue part 7)
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12th March 2026
Woke up with a sad feeling that Why Swami didnt reach out & later upon seeing this video, I felt…Wouldn’t it be nice that Swami would write to me too, being my doctor- write to me as my doctor regarding this Cancer,
Above link to post
To give away the back-story to my above thought…
Way back on 9th February 2015, I had offered blank pages in a letter, as my health report card, being frustrated that nothing would show up on any medical test.
So the report card was with a heading stating- Sathya Sai Diagnostics- Pathology Of Love & columns with patients name- age, gender and lab no, date, while below mentioning Dr of Dr Bhagwan Shree Satya Sai Baba- MD of Universe/ Cosmos.
Hoping that he would write to me as my doctor, what is this pain I’m going through, as back then I didn’t even know it was lupus.
I had kept the letter at a Sai centre in Mumbai & had “timely”, received a call that my letter was blessed by Vibhuti, so I should come & collect it- the day being 15th May, almost 3months later that Swami blessed the letter.
It was sealed & I had kept a pencil in it too,
that Swami should write to me in his own handwriting what is the pain I’m going through.
I mentioned “timely”, because that was the very first time Coco saw me breaking down, like I didn’t want to live & I had even tried to end my life back then
Baba being Omnipresent, knew I was at my lowest end & had cried through the day, and coco had cried along me, So he blessed the letter. Which Atul, Coco & I then went to collect by late evening,
as Atul had just come home from a long travel assignment & later came to know about the situation I was in.
When I opened I saw, on all the 6-7 blank pages Swami had left Vibhuti blessings, both back & front, which I then collected in a tiny cup back home.
Sharing pictures of my health report card blessed on 21st May 2015
But even then, Swami didn’t write my diagnosis. So I had this feeling that somehow he would reach out with a sign for me today….But, Yet again he didn’t…
So I felt sad, As Today is Thursday & today’s date being 12th When Coco left….
But for some reason, Swami didn’t reciprocate my feeling of Where do i stand with this Blood Cancer as it’s getting tough.
i Believe one shouldn’t have to beg for Love,
When one is facing some truly tough challenges.
Like Coco, Who would with his Forthcoming heart- Always Reach out & simply by looking in my eyes, He’d know- I’ve cried,
Maybe that’s how this Love of a thousand mothers- this Gayatri maa, Who had promised me- She’ll come- that’s how Swami should reach out!!! But he didn’t…
So frankly speaking i don’t know if i should go & even do this test….i don’t know anymore. When your Heart is Pained & Feels too Heavy; For All it Longs is Only for Sai to walk along that’s all-
Walk along me, every inch of the way, till my last breath in you gives away!
1.26pm
it doesn’t matter if i live or die- what matters to me is that every second of my life- Willingly with your heart you be there maa- the way Coco was- Why even every second, But every milli-second, you be there- that’s All i Ask!!!
Even if you’re not sharing about the Cancer for my protection…Yet in some way reach out, because for me you are the Only Doctor & maybe it’s naive of me to think- you as my doctor would in your own handwriting write to me my health report card….But that’s the way I am Swami, I want everything in my life to happen with you.
2.07pm
& then from within this Voice
“IM WITH YOU, IM WITH YOU, IM WITH YOU- AS YOU, IM WITH YOU MY CHILD- WE ARE NOT SEPARATE- YOU & I ARE ONE!!!”
2.17pm
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