His Grace- On The Eve Of My Beloveds 95th Birthday!

Grace;

Is A constant Gaze of God

That’s Eternally Locked upon each soul

To Help One...

Through Ones-Dark-Night;

As this Awareness of His Presence within

Makes even Flowers Bloom;

Illuminating Ones Path to Knowledge;

“That you are Never Alone My Child!”

For these burning flames of Grace

Leads All....

Knowingly...Unknowingly,

Through this “Dream” called “Life!”

This painting was given as a vision, a day after the 4th of November 2020, that marks 10 years to the promise that Swami gave me in Sai Kulwant hall, that he’ll take complete responsibility of my life through this chronic ailment I’ve been living in, for almost 2 decades now.

& when I reminded him of His Promise, & how I’ve been pushing against all odds, even more so through this pandemic

The very next morning, on the 5th of this holy-month, He woke me up to this Vision

The Vision - Flames of fire kept erupting from his beautiful light filled eyes, while lavender flowers bloom, his Grace as protection imprinted upon my heart, showing me that he has been with me for lifetimes over lifetimes.

That’s when the poem too was given.

It was very comforting & assuring, what Swami wanted to communicate regarding the promise he gave me a decade ago & how I were to paint this vision & even an intimation, that this message of His Grace & protection was not solely for me, but that this vision is imprinted on each & every soul

Yet the lesson wasn’t complete, as there was still a very potent message left to be given, while the painting was in process.

While painting, I happened to listen to a satsang on RadioSAI- https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=hiEd4dzUX3Q

The Birthday Gifts | Special Live Satsang Nov 12, 2020

(One can tune in to hear the entire satsang)

Of what can one give Swami for his 95th birthday. They shared various Birthday discourses & the message shared was of Swami asking us, that the only thing we can gift him, is that heart that he gave us at the time of our birth filled with love; That’s filled with Joy & Ananda, being ones true nature

Swamis messages can often be overlooked due to their simplicity but they always carry a great spiritual significance.

Because A heart that’s full of love, means a heart that does not fear & is free from the duality of happiness & sorrow. That’s equanimous through pain & gain. That vibrates with an energy that sustains this cosmos.

So upon listening I told Swami, I don’t know if at all I’ll be able to ever give you back such an heart. Because I had felt a deep sense of loss due to my illness & since last two years this overwhelming feeling would creep in every evening that I can’t go on anymore like this. I would cry inconsolably through most evenings, as years of physical pain along with dealing with relations, who were emotionally abusive & couldn’t understand the gravity of my illness, pushed me to the edge.

Having Coco, my 12year old Labrador baby, who’s a trained therapy dog, has been a great blessing through this challenging times that often left me bedridden for months, breathless, unable even to speak for weeks & my husband, who’s been A Rock, through it all.

I told Swami, I didn’t want to be on antidepressants or any such medications, being aware of repercussions of such meds. & One evening when i felt I’ve hit rock-bottom, I sat in front of his picture & told him, that I don’t want to spend even one more second of my life feeling this way & that if this feeling persisted, then it will be A Failure to his Promise.

Later what followed was

“This Miraculous Shift”, within me as the tears that had trickled & wept for years, simply dried & a cloud had been lifted.

This dark night, all souls go through at some point in their spiritual journey, these long periods of isolation, punctuated by cruelties of life, makes one rely on Swami within, while the entire drama is being played you only emerge out of this fire more purer to your True-Self, for this fire is not to consume, but give life.

The reason why I’m sharing all this is to set a precedence for the second message that Swami delivered while the painting process was on.

The second vision-

This time I see his face emanating blazing fire, as his form, emerges & dissolves into the fire while he tells me that-

“Every lifetime is a mere Dream!”

By this single message he imparted the wisdom that whatever one goes through in their lifetime; be it good or bad, be it challenging times or People who drain your energy, all these experiences are only a part & parcel of this dream called life, that nothing truly happens to ones spirit

Through this experience he took away any remorse that I felt for my loss of time & health through these 2decades of pain.

& a knowing that through such times if in the face of anger, you’ve been his understanding, in the face of indifference his equanimity, in the face of hurt & pain, his Forgiveness then you’re verily His Light & your presence here was not to just serve some time as karmic debt.

But in the midst of being “Nothing”, when one takes recourse in this “Self”-Confidence, that’s not subjective to ones health, work, success or money then that growth within too is His Blessing!

Once Swami was asked by a student, “When you look at us, what do you see & Swami replied- “ I See Only Light!”

That these challenging times to go within are not to be seen as some punishment or sentence for serving time, not to see yourself as separate from Him & that everything in this dream is only to experience Him & His love, maybe even more so now, because he’s taken away all distractions of seeking oneself outside

We never can gift him anything, not even that heart, for this God can swallow all our darkness of fear & anxiety of hopelessness & sadness, even free one from anger & jealousy so that our hearts can once again be His Pure Gold; “his Bangaru”, as he endearingly calls.

I Know, this pandemic too shall end by Swamis Grace & so shall my journey through this pain, but the only thing we need to remember & be aware in our good & bad experiences, is his Presence within our hearts, His Gaze that emanates such light that can swallow any darkness & know, when such a lord of this universe holds you & carries you through-

“You Are Never Alone!

For in his eyes-

“You’re The Light, You Are The One!”

Happy 95th Birthday to Our Beloved of Beloveds, Bhagwan Shree Satya Sai!

(Please feel free to Share this Prasadam of Love with All, as he’s the only artist & I a mere brush)

Received in All Humility

-Meghna

18th November 2020

4.14pm