In my head I’m stuck at 25

As Atul kept his knuckles pressed thru the night, upon my lumbar L4-5,

So I could wedge the tender spots around my disc & relieve the soreness that this pain like burning & scorching heat feels

All the while Asking Baba…

“If only you could Experience such pains- then would you wait for some “perfect-timing”

For my tears have lit up my nights,

“O Will thou Partake this pain- Will thou Ever Open That door to Healing my life”

Where A thousand bulbs of Hope Coco lit up-

As we waited & waited for thy grace to befall

Yes! I’ve reached this Threshold in pain, where I just CAN’T take it Anymore!

Beloved Sai, how long will you bear to see me in this pain; To die yet another day, Only to lit another bulb of Hope!

1.35am

Entire night Atul held my hand in his & with the other pressed his knuckles to help relieve the sore point so I’d be able to breathe & get some sleep

6/12/23

I wouldn’t have made it this far if not for complete blind support from both Atul & coco. Endless times Atul has cooked meals & made sure things are easy for me.

These paintings were done last year when I went through that horrible pain

©️Meghna/2024

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