My White Cloud!

I’ve been walking with A Cloud above my head for quite some time. A sense of heaviness that I didn’t take good care of myself, that I burnt myself down. This pain taught me to see myself, to see how our minds function. When people chose not to help me through my toughest times, I went digging in. Why does it happen that we see those living through decades of pain insignificant. Maybe because most souls who walk through such pains are never meant to fit in. Yet love as Coco kept me afloat.

I think people choose to abandon you at your toughest hour only because they feel more helpless than you. Because they truly don’t know how to help you.

& at times because they “Fear more than Love!”

Yet Pain took me away from attachment bondages to a space of Love. It’s about the growth of my spirit, where old ways of who I thought myself to be got swallowed

For many months as dusk would settle I’d find myself in a space where I’d cry inconsolably, not knowing how will I go through one more day like this. Cocos presence comforted me, even as Atul would feel helpless seeing me break

But since the beginning of this month a prayer has been answered, when I asked My Beloved, that I don’t want to feel a single day this way, anxious or helpless

& He in his immense Grace swallowed the heaviness that I had been walking with

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This Cloud here is Cocos hair that lay loose after a bath, I gave him today as he kept looking at the bathroom & then at me & when I asked him, do you wanna take bath, he instantly got up. It had been months since his last bath & even though

Atul is travelling on assignment, I took the plunge to go with the flow & bathe him, even though I’ve been in tremendous pain. This white cloud to me is my Beloveds Grace, that makes me glide inspite of all odds of life

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You can never be helpless

When it is God, who carries you through the tide & when you feel you no longer have any Strength

Then His Love Alone Shall Be Your

Might!

For he knows all about your pain

Even before a tear falls from your eyes

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Burdens of those who walk through invisible pain...

Are carried Alone by God!

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©️ Meghna/2020