My Yellow-Dog!

Through all my sinking pains...

& Brain fog...

All I like to do

Is paint “My Yellow Dog”

He speaks to me of

Summer-Spring...Of Daffodils

& all things that I dream...

He makes me a Child...

As I wander away with him

Where there’s no pain

“To A Land Promised!”

As sprinklings of blossoms-bloom

On flutters of butterfly-wings

“Our Broken-Imaginations

We Groom...”

So that Today we shall

Not Allow Pain...

“To Let Our-Smiles-Steal!”

For I can, Always choose my Now’s!

No matter how painful it gets

When Unable to breathe...

& Even my spoken words...

Dilute...& Washout...In Tears long wept...

Oh! The Ways In which This body fails...

Yet The Warmth Of His Yellows

Reminds me...

Of An Imaginative-Mind...

That’s Given As His-Gift!

Where even though...I May Still Be...

In this painful-bodily-space

Yet Impossible is Nothing

As My Yellow-Dog...

Softens the shadows of my life...

& As The Child in me...

Lay on this Olive-Green-Sky!

Where Flowers of my Hope bloom

For no matter how much life takes...

I Still have The Choice;

“To Choose My Now’s”

& along with My Yellow Dog!

I Choose to sail...Through this pain

“On An Happy Cloud!”

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Yesterday when I was sinking real bad through the trigger points on my scalp, I just sat & did a live study of Coco, as he slept. We were often given this assignment in our college, where the model would sit in a particular position for max- 10mins & we were to quickly paint it.

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I often wonder, why Coco Chose me as his mom, it was already 8 years of chronic pain, before he entered, now culminating to 20years. When I see Instagram pages of other dogs travelling or roaming places, I wonder, When will I take Coco like that as he loves outdoor activities. We actually have not had such a break since he’s come. He’s seen me struggle with my health & my tears.

So today, through my imagination I wanted to take Coco in a valley of butterfly & flowers.

Sometimes you can pour out your wishes through paints.

It’s just that simple!

Yet! I know I just wouldn’t have made it this far, if Coco wasn’t there.

A Big ❤️ to all the dogs who make life’s harshness bearable

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©️Meghna/2021