Sinking...Blurry Head...Dying Breaths...

On a thin thread of love

My life rests...

Weather I’ll make it or not

Only...My Beloved can tell...

Through dying nerves & space blurring in my head...

With Energy-draining...

On Feeble BreathS...

As breath upon breath sinks...

I wonder,

“What is it all worth for...”

Other than experiencing

A Love that Coco breathes!

I Wonder...

“Is there any meaning”

To this illness...This Suffering...

& through A thick mist of a white fog,

As i drain the way death feels...My Beloved...

With A Reassuring “Yes!” Answers;

“Only Through Love...”

“All Pain Finds it’s Meaning!”

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There Are Many Things...

You may Not Understand ‘NOW’

Of Why He Does the things He Does!

But if you’ll Quieten Your Mind;

You’ll “KNOW!”

The Way Conscience Always Knows!!!

For When He Chooses Not to Answer

Your Prayers..Or Reach Out...

The Way You Think He Should...

Then He’s Not Only Carrying You

But Your Burdens Are His;

& You Simply Need To Be;

As The Conscience Is;

“Be Faith! Be Trust!”

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What I’ll leave behind, more through my words is Silence, More through my pain is Hope, More through my tears is Love & More through my dying breaths is a Voice of God! But you can only heed that which is unsaid, if you’ve known A Pain like this & loss.

With my beautiful Coco, through the most tyring times of this Chronic Illness

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©️ Meghna/2021