Thank you for All Closed Doors!
The Chapati Story-
Whilst I was rolling the dough, the sinus pain since last few days was at its peak along with draining & sinking that lupus triggers in me.
I was wondering will I ever experience the love of a thousand mothers that of which baba speaks-
just then chapati took the form of a wing & even whilst in untold pain & moaning, very softly that lil voice of my heart spoke
“Don’t worry very soon you too shall fly high & beyond such pains that life gives”,
I smiled & thanked him even tho I felt I may pass out unable to withstand it,
just then that voice spoke again
“see it is I , who cooks & feeds for it is None other then the Grace of A Divine Mother who holds you in times like this”
& in that moment of out of body experience, i knew a higher force made things possible for on my own I couldn’t have made it
To me that sweet voice is None but my Sai, who for last 22yrs & even prior to that has held me
that lil voice is within each & the more we learn to shun the noises of our heads
that say- “you’re finished!”,
the more we experience there’s A Higher Force that does All The Doings!
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Someday we all shall come to a place of such Peace & Solace where it shall not matter anymore how our lives are perceived even in the eyes of God!
Beloved thank you for every door closed!
For now in this Surrender I no longer even seek to be validated in thy eyes,
As slowly im burning within Till everything shall merge in thee
Even this Desire that - “Will you Love me!”
Thank you beloved for teaching these most painful lessons through All of Life’s Closed Doors!!!
Thank you for crushing this Need to Be Validated that only separates me from that place of my heart my core!
If God takes away everything, Dance for he shows you how to traverse through pains of life upon Nimble Feet!
For there’s Only One Doer & that’s Him
©️Meghna/2024