& there I’ve laid my body to rest.
- megloke76
- Jun 1, 2023
- 2 min read
Updated: Apr 13, 2024
& there I’ve laid my body to Rest
Where lays My Beloved & Cocos breath!
This time when I lost my ability to use both my hands due to lupus flare up, (for almost 3weeks), I joined Atul on his assignment, citing I can just rest back in the hotel & take a break
On our way back home, there was this beautiful twilight that rendered the landscape still. The hues of greens & violets breathed upon the evening light
Its as though God dipped his paint brush in these colours & toned them in the setting suns stillness
How I felt at home, the way I’d feel with Coco. And in those moving landscapes that my heart clenched through our cars window, I knew I laid my fatigued body to rest there, As I would hugging Coco
Pain these days is slowly fading me & I can sense how beautiful death too is
At times some souls go through some Terminal illness that discloses to them the inevitable
& then there is illnesses like mine, Where pain makes you meet death in it’s intense moments, every now & then, Yet won’t set a deadline of how long will it suck the life out of your skin
I’ve experienced such pains & realised the growth it brings. The Strength of True Love that alone carries one & leaves their life’s in Gods arms. Coco was my constant companion through it all.
It’s like we were bound by love & grew through pains. In such intense moments of pain, I’d often tell Atul that if I’m no more, “Please take care of Coco”,
Yet he Preceded me, But only after showing me that I have to carry on in his love
When in such intense moments of lupus flare, that from my hands have now made way to the nerves beneath my eyes inflamed swollen & those beneath my scalp painful tender, again leaving me unable to speak & breathe & wave after wave of pain, such that a Brain fog, lays your body dead, sucking all life, Yet something within you, Inspires to keep on going
In these moments I’ve come to Realise, in all of body’s fading & dying,
If Something within you Blooms in Love & As Love, Then that Death of a mind,
Makes your Heart Gods Home!
(Simply by Cocos Love & Babas Grace even through this worst of Lupus flare, this painting got done in 2days time)
After a long time, doing this painting, took me back to my college days
©️Meghna/2023
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