Heart Of God!b
- megloke76
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Heart Of God-
For our Beloved Swami, From Our Beloved Swami!!!
30th November 2025
“Ask & it Shall be Given”,
That’s what Sai says from within my heart
& today I’ve asked him to break his Silence regarding this excruciating pain, that came upon me almost 2 decades ago.
Which i have been bearing, with my hearts grace & the love that both you & Coco (Coco, was our Labrador retriever baby- he was a therapy dog & helped many people in their pain, but mainly his presence was a blessing on me) showered upon me, along with meeting me with Kindness, So that my heart could keep going.
12.37am
No sooner had I prayed this- The very first picture to appear on my insta feed, is of Him sitting on Shesha Sai serpent.
In chits Swami promised me that Tomorrow early morning he shall answer my prayer.
He had kept this “Hope” going; that he shall answer my prayer regarding this illness for many many years.
So I felt, i shall paint this picture of Swami sitting on Shesha Sai, & share it along with the name of this illness as a closure.
Until now, No medical science Nor any doctors, were of any Help to show me a way out of this deliberating pain, Let alone even diagnose it
Other than Coco’s love, Swamis grace & a strong support from my husband, there was No therapy that taught me how to live with this kind of a pain, That would often leave me bedridden, unable to walk for months, to be able to speak Or even for weeks & months be able to use my hands & breathe.
Once again Hope message from Baba, that this December he shall intervene.
By 10.41am i asked him, will it again be ‘Wait’,
Or will you answer in the morning & he picked the chit - tomorrow he shall Answer.
I finish the painting of Swami sitting on Shesha Sai, waiting to share it tomorrow after Swami answers my prayer.
By Night, This message where he’s saving, this girl, is so apt!
As we were in a mall, to buy a few needful things & I could sense that I’m going to black out once again in this pain. As I have blacked out far too many times earlier too.
Atul, my husband had to request that we get an early table by 7.30pm, for dinner as there was a long queue of waiting.
I gulped sugar water, that Atul asked for & ate a quick bite, Just so that I don’t pass out.
While waiting for a table, that took us 35-40 minutes to get.
All the while saving various messages from baba that would appear on my insta page
The Above message was one of them & Swami was showing even in that taxing moment- he’s holding my hand.
There have been countless messages over the years as “Divine synchronicity of Bhagwan”, to help me get through from one day to another in these last 24yrs of pain.
But this above message just summarised all those silent years in this physical pain, Where on many occasions it would cross all threshold, such that I felt- I may not make it this time.
1st December 2025
As I am a light sleeper due to this pain, I told swami in my heart- “if it’s meant to be then it shall be!”
In context to my prayer that ‘please reveal the name of this illness & where do i stand in this pain’, that has taken everything from my life.
1.17am
After few minutes by 1.23am
I see Shirdi baba in white Kafni- While I’m kneeling at his feet- He wraps a Golden Shela around my shoulders even as I’m holding onto his feet like my life.
I show the painting of Swami sitting upon Shesha Sai by handing over my iPad & upon seeing he tells me- “Chala, Chala Santosham!”,
Even as I’m wondering- that Shirdi baba never speaks in Telugu.
And he says- “You will get more than you’ve asked for”, with a lot of love in his eyes, like for some reason, he wants to lay this Universe at my feet”
Then he says - “Your life shall be A Beacon of Light for many to come!”,
“You Shall be Honoured & Revered!”
“You reside in my heart now & you’ve made me so happy!” & there’s a twinkle in his eyes, All the while as he says this.
“None can take away what I’m giving you My Child, you’ve made me so Happy!”
As he looks at me with those love-filled eyes,
He says “Everything has Changed Now!”
And i quietly sit there Cherishing this moment of an intimate H2h love flowing from him towards me!
I know this already transpired, in my heart-
i just know!!! He’s already given!!!
The whole Experience was more that a Vision-
for i felt it already happened: in the present!
Like the feeling is so tangible that I have no words to describe.
Everything has Changed now- Everything has Changed!!! I can feel it!!!
& later around 2.25 pm
I googled what does it mean when Shirdi baba wraps a golden shawl around someone & this is the answer that baba wished to give…
In general Indian philosophy and spiritual contexts, a shawl is given as a mark of respect and honor. The specific meaning of Shirdi Sai Baba putting a golden shawl around a person would be a personal and spiritual blessing, an indication of divine favor, and a sign that the person's devotion or service is acknowledged.
Offering a shawl is a traditional Indian gesture of felicitating & When Baba offers it, it is a direct bestowal of that grace upon you.
Gold is a color associated with wealth, prosperity, and divinity. A golden shawl specifically would likely symbolize an abundance of divine blessings, spiritual wealth
The act of being draped in a shawl could also be seen as Baba taking you under his protection, shielding you from troubles, and guiding you on the path of self-realization.
I was so touched reading the above meaning,
As most of my life in this pain- i was looked down upon by many,
But here he’s comes showering
“His grace & Love!!!”
For which i felt so very Grateful!!!
Yesterday late evening around 7-7.15pm, i was sinking so bad in this pain, such that i felt I’ll pass out black out & not make it through this, as it was so intense, & today Baba was showering
His Grace upon me.
1.53am
later by 1.58am Baba sends this message-
again so apt
Click on the below link to listen to the message
& then in my heart-
i dropped all the baggage’s at his door- the burdens of pain i carried for long- Now they’re No longer mine- but His to carry; for now these burdens are His & His Alone!
2.00am
As this pain had been persisting since the month of October, on 25th November completely exhausted i told him in my heart- “Baba I’m yours & soley your Responsibility”
& then on 29th November he tells me from within-
“Beloved it’s no longer your body- your pain, you & i are one- so it’s my body- my pain!” While i was i was draining in energy due to severe nerve trigger points upon my scalp
9.12pm.
2nd December 2025
Such a beautiful message Baba sends to begin with…
pls click on the kink below to listen to the message
This is exactly how i saw him yesterday, Where he is standing over me, with his Protective love,
While i was kneeling - with his face very close to mine. & through this message once again he confirmed yesterday’s experience- Which to me was more than a vision.
& the message on it- “Hello December, Month of ending but beginning of transformation blessed by Sai baba”.
On 27th November 2025- in the afternoon around 1pm, While i was cooking- i heard his voice in my heart stating-
“you’re in my embrace my child, you’re Eternally seated upon my lap”, as a day ago i told him- “I’m Solely & Solely your Responsibility!” & to receive this above message is truly one of his wonderful signs of confirmation.
later around 9pm he’s assuring that- if you have me, then you already have all answers, all solutions in your life!
3rd December 2025
12.13pm
While sinking, draining in extreme nerve pain on my scalp, I told him-
“Baba, I can’t do it anymore….”
To that he says from within-
“I know, That’s Why I’ll Do It!”
Later in the afternoon
& then these below messages no matter what- Keep going, Keep walking.
pls click on the link below to see the message
pls click on the link below to listen to the message
Truly Gratitude in heart that he’s there, walking with us through it all.
4th December 2025
1st message upon waking up
Swami send this message through my mom. As she knows during such nerve trigger moments- I go through weeks & months without even able to speak, As these trigger points leave me utterly breathless.
But today’s day too, went in Wait & Swami didn’t reach out.
5th December 2025
This painting that I had completed & shared on 2nd of this month, Where I had asked you then- Swami when shall you answer with dates written on chits from 3rd to 5th.
& you answered that on the 5th that is today by morning, you shall reach out to me regarding the name of this pain- But you didn’t fulfil your promise maa…
(I had shared this painting of Swami on the 2nd, with a few poems, that he had given me through the last few weeks on my insta handle, as well as my website where i often share all these works of love)
My heart broke…Once again this Wait…
You Failed me!!! As you were to reach out today morning & one more day went by & you didn’t answer…
6.09am
I’ve often seen, Over the years Whensoever, Swami would break my heart this way, after promising a given date in chits & later Not Fulfilling the promise.
Baba would reach out to me in this way;
Where randomly he would make someone like
One of my earlier post, in which I’ve shared that i wish to live my life in Gratitude for Cocos love.
So as to reinforce Hope & As a reminder that don’t Give up!!!
Below are these earlier post that got liked today on my insta handle.
Since I had already started working on the painting in context to the below message Swami gave me on 3rd of this month-
while sinking draining I told him-
“Baba, I can’t do it anymore….”
To that he says from within-
“I know, That’s Why I’ll Do It!”
Swami, this painting I’ll only share if your words are Truth in Action. Cause today you were to reach out to me with name & current situation of this sickness, but you didn’t.
If you truly meant the above words- then let it be seen, Otherwise nothing!!!
They are just empty words…..
As like last year, When you asked me to share- “I’m dying, in this pain”, which i was reluctant to share on my post at that time…
To that You very strongly said this to me from within my heart- “When Saibaba Tells you to do something, There’s Always A Bigger Picture!!!”
So Now Baba, it’s not just me taking first step- now you have to take the remaining steps to finish what you started back then, When this pain got so intense that it felt- I’ll die.
10.24am
To me, in this journey with Swami- Nothing is accidental as I was working on these 2 wheels for the cart, that were to be part of society bldg- Christmas decoration.
And while painting i was listening to this talk in which Swamis message was shared- that until & unless what you’ve prayed to God for- until it doesn’t get fulfilled don’t give up on praying & asking… So Swami was stating- “Keep Praying for what you’ve asked!”
Screen shot while listening to the talk where it was shared, the below message
1.30pm
Since morning I was working on these 2 wheels & by 2.23pm, I offered these wheels at Babas Lotus feet & told him-
Baba these 2 wheels are my Shraddha-Saburi, and the between circle that holds the spikes is devotion. So I’m offering my Faith- Patience & Devotion at your lotus feet.
If in these last 24yrs, If at all, i may have offered you even a tiny minuscule of this Faith & Patience at your lotus feet, from the purity of my heart then today itself you will reach out to me with the name as well as my current diagnosis of this pain.
Only if I’ve offered it from the truth of my heart-
If Not then pls don’t reach out- For this is my test of devotion-not yours.
& I even added that these wheels are like wheels of my life stagnant since last 24yrs,
if Now is the time to move, then pls move them.
I even offered them as wheels of my marriage & offered all the problems that came into our lives with this pain.
After finishing the wheel work, later by evening i was working on some other painting-
When again from within, Swami tells me- “Finish the morning painting”.
So after finishing this work i tell him-
I’ll only share this after you answer my prayers regarding this pain. But something felt incomplete in this work and I felt Baba wasn’t happy…
& it’s just after i added the above energy sprinkles of yellow that are flowing as Grace from Swami towards me- safeguarding and carrying me afloat in this deep ocean of pain-
That from inside baba tells me-
“Chala Santosham Bangaroo!”
That now he’s very happy as the work is complete & with that he’s showing me that he has already saved me, as shown in the painting!!!
8.01pm
link where Swami is singing
It’s already 12am, the day has ended with your Silence & Once again proved-
“I’ve Failed that’s all!”
Failed in my offering of Faith, Patience & Devotion to thee. As there’s No sign of Blessing you’ve sent my way.
I said, I’ll just carry on with this horrible pain, all by myself in Gratitude to Cocos Love!
6th December 2025
It was 12 midnight and Baba didn’t reach out…
While in unbearable pain, as I was massaging my head to relieve the nerve pain,
I realised there are countless trigger points on the left side of my scalp hence not only do my eyes get swollen but It leaves me drained out, breathless & unable to speak & function for months on end.
Heart-broken, I lay lifeless in that pain, feeling “I’ve Failed”, struggling with each breath,
cause my offering of the symbolic “2 wheels”, wasn’t Accepted by Swami, as he gave me No signs of blessings yesterday.
I imagined myself in Parthi- Sai Kulwant hall, laying curled up near Swamis feet as he sat on chair, while I was holding his feet as my home, with Coco sitting beside me. As I always felt wry strongly, since his passing, Coco is with Swami now.
I simply let go, holding on to Swamis feet,
listening to this song that I kept on loop only to turn it off by 4 in the morning after which I caught some sleep. I felt the song voiced out my feelings towards Bhagwan.
Later Baba woke me up with a Dream.
The Dream:
I’m driving my jeep and after some distance, I take a sudden break as a litter of puppies come under my jeep. I get down feeling overwhelmed and pained that why such a thing had to happen. I pull them all out- luckily all are saved except one, who has a scratch and is bleeding. I pet that puppy for a while, but then leave.
Again while I’m driving there’s a sudden right turn that my jeep takes and it’s jumped over a small landing across towards a completely different road. And I’m shocked and get down to check and there’s a small water canal, dividing me from the road I was meant to take.
And there was no way to turn the jeep back over that small landing.
So I’m looking out for help. And as I turn back, just within a few seconds- I see- the jeep is stolen.
And I’m wondering how can this even happen, when Im standing right here.
Later I walk towards the lane, Where my jeep accidentally landed and I’m asking people for their help to find my jeep.
One lady says there’s “a racket” going on here, Where people steal cars & she points me towards a direction to help me find my jeep.
I walk in the said direction and as I’m enquiring,
A girl passes by me and offers to help me find my jeep.
So I follow her and I see a few other people along with her, all walking towards a field. It’s dark and only the insect sounds are audible, so I tell them “please be careful, as there can be snakes…”
& out of the blue they pull out a huge snake, which for some reason is trying to stay hidden in the bush, but they still manage to pull it out & then I see that girl bent down, with her face close to the snake- whisper something to it.
The snake which was earlier trying to stay hidden is now making a way & leading us.
Seeing all this I’m just shocked, unable to make sense of what’s happening…
Yet I ask the girl- “Will the snake help?”,
& she replies “Yes”.
& As we are following the serpent- its hood is now wide open- like Shesha Sai and yet in that position it’s slithering ahead while we all follow it.
As we’re following the snake, I get the feeling “that maybe I hurt those puppies so I’m facing this in my life”, & I tell myself “I shall go and see if that puppy needs my help, I shouldn’t have left that way…”
After covering some distance, I see a big bird- an eagle on my left side- trying to stop the snake, but it’s been shooed off by someone, Saying- “That The Snake is here to help & Only the snake can help”.
The snake slithers & leads us to another by lane and at the corner- I can see my stolen jeep.
And that’s when I hear Swamis Voice saying-
“You did Nothing wrong, you didn’t hurt the puppy” & listening to those words- I sigh a relief!
He further says, “I took it upon me, I won’t let it harm you, you did Nothing wrong! You stopped the car”.
And then he even goes to say-
“Since you’ve done Nothing wrong- I’ll do Right by you!”.
And the dream Ends!
So upon waking, I didn’t know what to make of it. What was Swami really trying to tell me & only after some research, Swami led me to the clarity & significance of the dream.
fter some research, Swami led me to the clarity & significance of the dream.
Symbolism Breakdown
Puppies often represent innocence, vulnerability, and new beginnings.
Personal Growth and Resilience: The puppy surviving represent resilience. It could symbolize your ability to recover quickly from a setback or a difficult situation, showing that even after a potentially harmful event, life goes on
& then the meaning of snake helping me find my lost car The Lost Car: Represents your personal drive, motivation, independence, or the direction you're heading in life; losing it suggests feeling directionless, losing control. The Snake: A powerful symbol of transformation, healing, rebirth (shedding skin), hidden knowledge, often appearing when major changes are happening. The Help: The snake's assistance flips its usual "danger" connotation, showing that this transformation or instinct is a positive force guiding you out of confusion.
So now I understood what Baba meant- when I say maybe I’m facing this pain; this illness in my life, because I hurt the puppy. & he says I didn’t hurt the puppy.
Baba showed me that Not Only has he Accepted my Shraddha, Saburi & Devotion, But He shall make me emerge from this karma Unscathed as he’s taken it over him, because i did Nothing wrong.
I didn’t bargain that Innocence of my heart as symbolic of a puppy & was Resilient inspite of being wronged by many due to their lack of understanding of this pain in my life.
So he shall Do Right by me for this innocence- “Dharmo Rakshate Rakshata”- this God has come to uplift Dharma!
& even an understanding of what the snake symbolises- as I prayed to him just yesterday,
that only you can move my life that’s been stagnant due to this pain & the snake in the dream- helping me find my jeep- was symbolically to end this phase of stagnancy from my life.
Hence he has not only moved the wheels of my life, But through this dream, Baba made me traverse on a spiritual plane, by cutting down that time of pain from my worldly life, which otherwise I would still be facing.
& I had no words to describe this feeling- That My Heart is Melting & Melting & Melting in him! As he answered my prayer with this mind blowing sign through a dream!!!
So I tell Swami since you’ve given me the sign- I shall share the yesterdays painting with the poem you gave me, But the dream experience, I’ll only share after you answer my prayer with the name of this illness.
Above is the Link to this post where I’ve written of his love as vast ocean that encompasses me.
& whilst this Post was getting uploaded on my insta page,
I couldn’t believe, the very first message on my feed is of Swami standing with Shesha Sai- open hood in the background with a message of Ocean and wave as the painting of Hope, where he inspired me to write- I’m the wave and he’s the ocean of compassion.
This screen shot shows that my post is still getting ready to be uploaded, while Swamis sign of Shesha Sai is seen.
So True, So Very True!!!
Once again I tell him- Baba this time I will not go first sharing all these personal things,
& then made to feel irrelevant like the last time.
Now you go first & do what needs to be done & Reveal the bigger picture, with the message you gave me last year.
9.10pm
Yes maa, Everything is Over Believe me- If Now your Role doesn’t start then there’s Nothing for me here.
7th December 2025
Since i couldn’t sleep so i thought- watch some devotee talk.. so i ask baba- “Where shall you lead me…” & from within he says - “Go inside your heart- Sit There!”
So be it. I’ll again hold on to him in my heart keeping that same yesterdays music on loop & just imagine sitting by his feet-
until i sleep Or until he wakes me up!
2.25am
Was awake till late hours due to pain, it was 5.10am, but Baba didn’t reach out, Yet again with the answer to this pain…..
Later by 8am,
I asked “Swami why didn’t you reach out…”,
was thinking…”was this whole dream episode of yesterday just my mind cooking things up”,
& he says from within- “No, Have Faith”,
later he says “Look up for the Significance of Shesha Sai statute in Parthi temple”,
So I again ask- “Baba why didn’t you reach out…”
& again from within He says- “My ways are different, Have Faith”,
& then goes to say “All you have to do is stay Available to me”.
- 8.19am.
As I look up, for Shesha Sai statute in the inner Bhajan Hall of Parthi, in it’s place there’s this bronze statue of Sathya Sai Baba, That was re-installed in the inner bhajan hall (sanctum sanctorum of the Prasanthi Nilayam bhajan hall) in March 2020.
Before this re-installation, the space contained a silver idol of Shirdi Sai Baba, often referred to by the user's phrase "silver shesha sai" due to its five-hooded serpent (shesha) canopy. This silver idol represented Shirdi Sai Baba sitting and teaching at Dwarkamayi. The five hoods symbolize the mastery over the five senses.
So Swami was showing me that it was He only who came as Shesha Sai to help me in the dream. And as to why he didn’t answer today morning regarding my prayer…
As with this sign he was asking- “have I offered him these 5senses”, that’s the feeling I got after reading about Shesha Sai.
So I tell him, Baba I don’t know anything about my mind or five senses, this pain has washed me out so much through these years, that I only have this Heart- that’s Simple & Pure to offer you!
And I ask him in chits- do you accept it & he says yes.-
9.45am
That’s when I get an intuition- that maybe Baba didn’t answer, cause he wants me to paint this Bronze idol of him.
So I start doing this painting as his earlier words given to me this morning resonate- “My ways are different. Have Faith. All you have to be is stay Available to me”
While painting this bronze idol of Swami, there’s a surge of energy & then from within, Swami says
“This Paintig Shall be shared, My Child, with many, many countless beings- As An Healing for both Mind & Body!!! For Here in Lies The Heart Of Sai”
11.47pm
& I can almost feel that Child-like enthusiasm in Swami like he’s just waiting for this painting to be done and shared!
While I’m listening to a talk on Swami & painting…
The talk I was listening to was life Changing Stories of Grace by Brother Bishu…
later once again, while the painting is on,
Baba says this from within my Heart- “Om Shree Sai Vishwaroopaye Namath!!!” It’s like My heart automatically, starts chanting this without any prior thought.
12.06pm
& what transpired next, at that very exact second, is something that even I didn’t expect,
& I had goose bumps all over & my eyes welled up in love at the sign that Baba was giving-
Cause at that very instance - Brother Bishu sings- “Vishwaroop Tum ho…Vishwaroop Tum ho…” meaning - You are Vishwaroop Baba.
My heart is on automated chanting mode of
“Om Shree Sai Vishwaroopaye Namah!!!”
While painting this Bronze idol of Swami.
I finish listening to the earlier talk and Baba then leads me to listen to another talk.
Below is the link of that talk
And once again I truly don’t know how, But Baba had everything lined up for me, to make His Presence more evident.
Cause in the talk Brother Amey is sharing that “We only Need to take the First step & Swami will do the rest”, & then he goes to say- “What we need to do is to Be Available to Swami”
I was Totally Amazed & touched by Swamis love as that’s exactly what he told me this morning-
“You Only have to Be Available”.
Touched, Humbled with this entire flow of Divine Experience & play of His Love, I tell him-
Now if you truly want me to share the dream experience and today’s experience with all these paintings then you have to take the remaining steps and answer my prayer regarding this illness.
Later in the talk, Brother Amey explains so beautifully with a story of how it is God that makes the flute efficient enough & lends his music, simply by his Grace.
That It can be any flute but it is Gods touch alone, that can breathe music into it,
& that’s exactly what he’s done today for me, with all these signs of Divine-synchronicity!
Heart Of God painting.
By evening 4.52pm, I offer this painting at Swamis feet.
I ask him what does he mean that “this painting will be An Healing for both Mind & Body!!! For Here in Lies The Heart Of Sai”
& to even explain “When Sai Baba asks you to do something - There’s Always A Bigger Picture”
So please reveal the bigger picture maa.
9.29pm
8th December 2025
Swami didn’t reach out yet…Even this morning regarding my prayer for this pain. So I asked him, is there something lacking in the yesterday’s painting & he said ‘No’ in chits.
Later he draws my attention to today’s message which I had received post 12am
For me, Whatever message I receive be it on insta feeds or otherwise it has always synchronised with the current situations in my life, coming directly from Swami. So this message here…
“Let it all go. See what stays”…. may sound so simple, But since Swami drew my attention to it regarding why hasn’t he Answered my prayer yet..
I realised, When Everything goes, be it Mind, Body then All that Stays is Heart; “Heart Of God”.
When our identification with the body fades- that I’m a woman, or man, child or adult & so on.
& even our Minds & it’s Attachments, Desires fades then what remains is Heart & that Heart is Nothing But Gods Presence in Each-
So Swamis yesterdays message- “This Painting Shall be shared, My Child, with many, many countless beings- As An Healing for both Mind & Body!!! For Here in Lies The Heart Of Sai”
And while the painting was in process- He sang from my heart- “Om Shree Sai Vishwaroopaye Namah!!!”,
By these messages, he was showing, When all attachments fade, then All That Remains is His Presence within as this Heart & that is-
“His Vishwaroop within each!”
And even an understanding that when one can turn within to this Heart then it’s the Source for all healings be it of Mind Or Body.
So sharing of this Painting “Heart of God”, is Sharing of this Healing of one’s Mind & Body & the entire puzzle piece, simply fell into place.
And this is the Bigger Picture for Healing.
You know what’s the most beautiful part of this journey with Sai, is that “He still manages to Surprise you with His Signs”, Even though they are countless innumerable signs of His Silent workings.
Later Today morning I placed a chit at his Lotus Feet, stating that “Only If I’m your heart, then today itself you shall reach out to me with the Name- Diagnosis, Prognosis of this illness that for last 24yrs No one has been able to help me out with”
9.54am
“Baba only & only you can Finish what you’ve started!!!”
& then I asked him- When will you make me share this Prasadam of your love Baba… & out of two options, tomorrow being 9th Or this Thursday. From within he says ‘Thursday’, & then he confirms it again in chit
11.02am
later I again resumed one of my earlier works of Coco.
While painting- I told Swami,
“You came to me as Coco, to be beside me in the toughest times of my life through this pain”, & countless times you saved my life, “literally speaking”, as Coco beside, When in this pain i felt i can’t go on & had even tried to end my life.
But as Coco you saved me & took a promise that no matter how testing this pain gets- in Cocos love I’ll keep going.
It’s been 3.5yrs since his passing, when you showed me in the dream- “Coco is seated upon your lap, While you’re lovingly petting him & saying- “Our Coco, Our Coco””
Mother, from this mother to you, I ask that please answer this question regarding my health as a Respect to Coco’s selfless love & givings, for the 13.5yrs of his life he selflessly stood by me. As Coco would even cry, seeing me in pain & rest his head upon my heart- in moments when i couldn’t even get up. Along with touching many lives as a therapy dog.
12.29pm
Once again he speaks from within my heart,
& I note it down on the same paper where I’m doing cocos panting- “All of your works are A Prayer my child! & I Accept each & every of your work done till now, For it’s come from your heart & That Heart is My Presence!”
12.43pm
1.17pm
& later i tell baba, unable to control sobbing melting-
This morning I offered you my heart.
i really am Nothing & have Nothing to offer you- but this humble heart as this piece of paper at thy lotus feet! Maybe it’s just too less & way too simple, but that’s all i have to offer you maa. & i kept crying endlessly & melting in my heart in this love for him!!!
It’s like a dam broke & the tears as
“A cascading-ceaseless waterfall”, flowed from my heart, along with this strong feeling- “I too should have left with Coco & Be Home at thy lotus feet!”
I mean has there ever been An Instance, Where Swami may Not have reciprocated Our unsaid feelings….
For This is exactly how I felt- in the afternoon, when I just couldn’t stop sobbing, that I just want to go home now, to him.
Later, i asked him will you reach out in Respect to Cocos life his selfless givings & love & he answered - Yes!
4.54pm
Though…it’s 6.03pm already & the day is closing in & you haven’t reached out to me.
Now you have to go first & make way for me- Cause Baba No One Believes your girl & it’s not a good space to live from- where for last 24yrs of this pain i was constantly judged- questioned & doubted & cross-checked. So if you really want me to share all these works, then you make the way for me!!!
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The message here is “The distance between God and you is the distance between you and God”- As For me he is my heart- No Distance!
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Baba, i already took my step, & today I even asked you to make way for me- by going ahead of me! But For some reason you’re Silent again… As one more day ends in this Endless-Wait…
9th December 2025
“When Swami becomes Silent- Then you also become silent!!!” Lil voice within my heart says.
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I did this yesterday itself baba, i already did that.. But since you didn’t reach out & even Chose to remain Silent- So i too shall be silent!!!
Yesterday i cried inconsolably in the afternoon telling him- “i really have nothing to offer you other than this heart- cause I’m nothing!!! And here today, he’s Showing me He has Accepted my heart!
1.44am
I’m in too much pain- too much pain & really I’m dying maa..
Thank you, For all your today’s messages & especially the message that you’ve accepted my heart is most touching,
But maa,
This time you take the fire, Cause since this pain came in my life- I’ve been Overruled!!! So you Finish what you’ve started. Only when it will come from you then it shall Be Believed!
1.50am
Finished this work today that i had started yesterday of Swamis love melting hearts,
like his love is like a fire, that doesn’t burn you…
But in-turn makes you Whole!
Swami with this all my offerings are done
5.40pm
Baba i have called out to you & You alone!
With all my heart! Countless times….
After, the Sai Krishna painting offering- i told him “I’ve done my part now you do Swami. Cause i truly have Nothing else to offer you other than this heart!”
And i left this prayer in the knowing-
“if it’s meant to be then it shall be!!!”
& his next message to me, is so true for i am calm. Even though I’m draining in pain & energy like crazy.
yes he does, he does…
10th December 2025
Once again was awake till late hours in extreme pain.
From my heart again this voice-
“With Every Second you Wait in Faith! Sai will meet you with His Grace!!!”
5.04am
& again this Voice says - “Something Big And Amazing is about to Happen!!!”
8.10am
this below was the first message on my insta feed & here Swami is seen for Christmas celebration 1996, meeting the students & enquiring how’s everyone & is anyone sick.
& then he goes on to give Vibhuti & says “Tonight Very Important!”
& i know Nothing with baba is just a passing message. I felt this message is for me- that “Tonight very important!” Regarding my health
11.02am
Baba you said “Tonight it’s important!”,
so you have to reach out tonight itself- will you…
to that he says from within- “My Child, i Never Disappoint My Devotees, & Especially I Never Disappoint those who have Faith!”
2.00pm
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Then Come maa, Then Come!!!
11th December 2025
Baba just yesterday afternoon you gave me these words- “My Child, i Never Disappoint My Devotees, & Especially I Never Disappoint those who have Faith!”
2.00am
Baba then pls come!
Was awake till late & then slept. But i told Swami in my heart- “I don’t know why you’ve not reached out maa!”,
inspite of yesterday’s message that “Tonight is very important”. I waited maa, i waited…
Later in the morning
I don’t know why haven’t you still reached out, my heart was pained! So i wrote to him this-
“Swami, I won’t be sharing “The Heart of God” painting & it’s experiences, Cause you didn’t reach out with the name of this illness & you didn’t Finish what you started- to take the First step in that retrospect!-
I Accept!!!”
9.36am
Post writing this to swami, i kept hearing this voice from within as though on a loop- “Baba Never leaves any Business-Unfinished”
Again that lil voice-
12.21pm
“Today your Mother will come…Today your Mother will come…Today your Mother will come…”
-Voice from my heart kept saying this…
So I write to him
4.41pm
Today itself my mother, you come…Today itself my mother you come!!! please don’t loose this momentum again with your Silence! Pls Come!!!
12th December 2025
Just felt like it shall Never Happen….
Was awake past 3am, & kept telling him-
“you say you never leave your devotee Disappointed”, But Baba days over days pass & you didn’t reach out to my prayers regarding this illness.
And it feels like I’m truly not suppose to share this “Heart of God” Painting cause you have to reach out & finish what you’ve started.
And then this early morning message & i felt just imagine “if he really comes, as he’s been telling me…”
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if Swami walks in today, he will just meet with this heart that’s filled with His Love!
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This above message in an answer to my feeling that, “i guess this is how it ends!”
to that he’s reaching out and saying Trust, he’s making the way where there’s none!!!
Around late evening by 5pm, i tell Swami in my heart- “My entire life, in these last 24yrs in such pains, I didn’t earn anything- be it in my work or finances or relations…”
To that he says from within- “You Earned me!”,
So i say- “How can anyone earn you maa…”,
So he goes on to say- “You Earned My Grace & that’s one of the Biggest Strength that anyone can have!”
i asked him when does he want me to start including the messages for-“Heart of God”, from the earlier ptg or from 1st December experience
& he chose 1st.
6.03pm
Swami i Trust you, i don’t know the reason of this Wait, Where you choose not to answer.
But i know Nothing in the Universe can stop you from answering this simple question. & i know other than you None can make this way for me & truly finish this wait, So that it can be shared as Prasadam.
Cause not only it’s been a 24yr long wait-
but now i don’t know- What’s more left…
Other than “answering my prayers!!!”
11.25pm
& then the last message of the day.
13th December 2025
1st early morning message on my insta feed. Swami in Yellow & Yellow always makes me happy. As it’s the Colour of Coco & Colour of Sun. And that’s all I Need- Light & Love!
Countless & Innumerable Prayers of Our Hearts, Bhagwan must have heard & Answered,
Yet He Never Tires!!!
Imagine! Just yesterday evening, he told me from within- “You’ve Earned My Grace, that is your Biggest Strength!” And then today morning this message to re-confirm.
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DSMWD2ACW3i/?igsh=MTN3azUzdnBvanA3bQ== Link to Above reel
So true, He walks with us Every Step!
Both His & Cocos love was such that- I don’t know what they saw in me, “But They Never Once Gave up on me, Nor did they want me to Give up on Hope!”,
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